Show me the light.

Today is one of those days I have a dozen thoughts running berserk in my mind. Yet, despite how preoccupied I am with feeling bothered by these dozen issues, I have no idea what exactly is troubling me. (Oh.. the irony.)

I am just not at peace with myself. Feeling utmost dissatisfied with myself when I shouldn't. What did brought a smile to my face was when I thought of the really nice blue skirt I got from M)phosis 2 days back. Pfft.. What have I become?

(Smacks myself hard on the face.)

I bought a book for myself - something worth mentioning since it's been eons that I last do so. The book is Tuesdays with Morrie, under the recommendation of Dorcas 'da babe. Something like an inspiration book that shares the insight to life itself.

(Till this point, I suddenly recall Daniel, my shop manager at Cuppage, saying, "everything is an illusion. You have no life, that's why you need to read about LIFE!!!" Bah* He is really crappy at times. Gosh. Haha.)

Anyway, back to the book. Just wanna share with you guys a few snippets that made me think..

tension of opposites

life is a series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one thing, but you are bound to do something else. Something hurts you, yet you know it shouldn't. You take certain things for granted, even when you know you should never take anything for granted.

A tension of opposites, like a pull on a rubber band. And most of us live somewhere in the middle.

meaning of life

So many people walk around with a meaningless life. They seem half-asleep, even when they're busy doing things they think are important. This is because they're chasing the wrong things. The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devoting yourself to the community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning.

Can't wait to finish the book, though I am savouring it bit by bit. I forsee there is much I can learn.. Maybe it can show me life from an unique angle I never imagined.

Like a lost sheep, I hope there is someone or something that can guide me along, or out. Right now, it feels as if I'm grappling with my heart, a heart that's constantly at war with itself.