my life is like..

i have been thinking quite alot about life lately.

and i think my life lacks adventure and romance.

what i have? stability and more stability.

i wish..
- i can go somewhere, outta singapore, without any members of my family.
- i have the courage to stop school for a sem or two and just do what i wanna do.
- my parents will stop being protective and i can do as i wish.
- i am not so much of a sucker for stability.

i met ting after school today for dinner. she is determined to go germany after she graduate, undaunted by the possible risks and problems we all have in mind for her. i guess we are all worried, visualising the possible worse scenarios but i still would support her decision if she really wanted to go. if that is what she wants. if that makes her happy. if with that, she will find her purpose in life, which i think is crucial for all of us. just be safe. and happy.

i admire her determination. just as i admire people who would drop out of school for a while to "catch their breathe". and also those who would plan alternative routes to go somewhere else to study and not follow blindly the sg system - pri -> sec -> jc -> sg uni *yawnx*. also those who would fly off to some other countries without telling their family members.

something unlikely of me. something uncertain. exciting. adventurous. risky.

for the 1st time in my life, i sincerely wanted to be someone different. not that i don't love the person i am now, just that i know i don't wanna go on for the rest of my life being a stable person no less.

i gonna start rethinking my life..