you dont matter. i dont't care.

i heard from somewhere many years back that:

true love is when the love for someone surpasses the need for someone.

maybe that's why some people would wish the other happiness, even if it means the happiness does not include him/her. or maybe that's why some would silently love someone and not expect anything in return. maybe that's why loving someone doesn't mean possessing the person.

love is bewildering. it has the power to elate - bringing us to the highest point and also the power to free fall us to reality - shattering us to bits.

i used to struggle with my past. then time has it - i come into terms with my past and embrace my present. recently future hits me like a punch in my face and i choose to hold on tight to my present.

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i used to abhor being alone in my secondary school days. why? childish as it may sound 'cos it makes me feel that people are looking at me thinking i am a loner.

perhaps wisdom comes with age *wink wink*.. i don't mind being alone. sometimes, i rather be left alone.

than to be surrounded by some superficial people.

i am blessed enough to have many great individuals that taught me about life.. back in the band, during one of our many indoor practices, Mr Siao told us something like this:

listen to the comments from people who matter to you.
if the person does not matter to you, why do you even bother hearing him?

it struck me like a chord and it's something i carry with me through life. thus explaining the title of this blog - you don't matter. i don't care.

you can think/say whatever's negative of me.. but chances are you don't matter to me.