cant sleep.

i am sleepy.

i should go and sleep. but i tink i am seriously addicted to the internet. i don't feel right if i don't surf enough, check all my emails, read my staple blogs, see who is on MSN (though i don't wanna tok to anyone).. this is pathetic and a waste of time.

nonetheless, heck! since i am awake already. so let me pen a lil thots here..

collin's temporary absence has served me good so far.. cos it gives me ample time for me and myself only. i have spent a great deal of time thinking about my last 20 years lately. undeniably, reaching the big TWO must have been a contributing factor to my sudden influx of thoughts and unexpected stirs of emotions.

i think my emotional life is falling into place. not that it had been very hectic though.. but perhaps prior these 2 weeks, i hadn't been thinking much about where life is taking me to. hadn't been pondering over recent events. constantly having the just-let-things-be attitude. i feel so much more in control of my life and feelings now than ever before and there are some thoughts i hope i don't lose in all that hustle and bustle.

now.. it's time to catch up on academic life.

and yea.. definitely my love life too. collin is coming back in 2 days time. finally, my love.






i have alot of thots in my head. some too jumbled. some too private. some too unimportant. must be the night. peace. serenity. zZzZzZz. (sleeps)