friends and uni.
i was talking to john about nus being depressing - one of the factors being you don't have your close(r) friends with you most of the time. then he told me i should do networking and get to cultivate closer friendships with people. but my point is as long as at the end of the day, i have this certain (small) group of people with me, i am ok.
after the chat, i felt a lil dry in my eyes. then i remember ting messaging me the other day to read ST cos there is something about lasik - people having failed surgery, going blind, not having corrected eyesight after the surgery. so i decided to moist my eyes. you never know what will happen anyway, better to take xtra care. then i realise i have given my only bottle of prescribed eyedrop to my brother. but on my table, stood two new bottles of eye mo. from ruth. she gave me one bottle for dry eyes and the other for eye irritation together with many other meaning-full stuffs for my birthday. how thoughtful.
you get what i am trying to say? as long as i have these people who sincerely care, i don't want to go around cultivating frenships with people who probably doesn't give a hoot. i don't want to have superficial friends cos in any case, they don't make my NUS life any less depressive . i guess i am prolly at a stage whereby i don't want to be so-called networking. i am very much content being left alone at times in NUS.
which prolly also explains why i will want to go smu. at least my frens are there - xiang, dorkie, jasmyn, huiling (and collin, in time to come). it is not that bad in NUS actually. i don't think SMU will be less stress than where i am now. i just thought a change of environment will be good. besides, i really wouldn't mind a biz degree over an arts one. and no, it is not because of collin that i wanted to go. but with the factors mention earlier, collin will be a bonus.
ultimately, it is still tentative whether i go to SMU or not. i have to be selected for interview and pass the interview. with A level results like mine, i am not pinning high hopes. i don't think i will get too upset if i don't get in. arts will do just fine.
i am just letting things fall into place themselves now. life is ok. just ok. and ok is good enough for now.
after the chat, i felt a lil dry in my eyes. then i remember ting messaging me the other day to read ST cos there is something about lasik - people having failed surgery, going blind, not having corrected eyesight after the surgery. so i decided to moist my eyes. you never know what will happen anyway, better to take xtra care. then i realise i have given my only bottle of prescribed eyedrop to my brother. but on my table, stood two new bottles of eye mo. from ruth. she gave me one bottle for dry eyes and the other for eye irritation together with many other meaning-full stuffs for my birthday. how thoughtful.
you get what i am trying to say? as long as i have these people who sincerely care, i don't want to go around cultivating frenships with people who probably doesn't give a hoot. i don't want to have superficial friends cos in any case, they don't make my NUS life any less depressive . i guess i am prolly at a stage whereby i don't want to be so-called networking. i am very much content being left alone at times in NUS.
which prolly also explains why i will want to go smu. at least my frens are there - xiang, dorkie, jasmyn, huiling (and collin, in time to come). it is not that bad in NUS actually. i don't think SMU will be less stress than where i am now. i just thought a change of environment will be good. besides, i really wouldn't mind a biz degree over an arts one. and no, it is not because of collin that i wanted to go. but with the factors mention earlier, collin will be a bonus.
ultimately, it is still tentative whether i go to SMU or not. i have to be selected for interview and pass the interview. with A level results like mine, i am not pinning high hopes. i don't think i will get too upset if i don't get in. arts will do just fine.
i am just letting things fall into place themselves now. life is ok. just ok. and ok is good enough for now.
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