blogging and inner me.

Zonghan says:


haha.. ur skin reflects ur mood sia.. girly, then depressing,
then now in lurrrve... and so much in lurrrve.. oh gosh. :P

hmmm.. that never cross my mind. i just did up the skin with a rough sketch of an ideal skin in mind. perhaps it is true that it does reflects my current mood to some extent.


for one, i choose WHITE over my former BLACK skin to symbolise stepping out of darkness, a new (happy) life. wells, cos blardy exams are finally over, excruciating Sem 2 is finally over and holidays are FINALLY here.. and it is a freaking yummilicious 3 mths break! how apt is the change of colour.. *grins*


i dunno about the so much in love part though. haha. that wasn't my intention leh. the theme, though not a very prominent one i admit, is the search for true romance in the urban world.


at least that's how i interpret my skin.


if a transition is required, i say
-my 1st skin displays postivity (optimism or naiveness, whatever you deem).
-my 2nd displays (negative) negativity.
-my 3rd, this one! displays (positive) negativity.


i dunno if there is negative and postive negativity. but hope you catch my drift.


the point of all the above is to say blogging kinda transformed the inner me. just 7 mths back, i am the one who goes around saying "life is good. i'm loving it.", not thinking too much about things. was i happier then?


actually i think i was, but i must have felt empty too. but that doesn't mean life ain't good now, i am still loving life. just that over the course of these 7 mths, i became more aware of myself and the environment. perhaps blogging did not transformed me, instead it merely reverted me back to the emotional self. (of cos not back to this. heh.)


somehow along the way, i must have forgot Mr Gui's "what's the worst that can happen", Jae's faith in us (or in miracle. hee. we are pearls, with potential to shine), Mr Siao's many wise words and Macdonald's "life is good. i'm loving it." (ok.. i am kidding about the last one.)


i'll be postive. from now on, life can only be looking up. uP. UP.




for my 1st skin, i have this javascript that runs in my status bar and it goes like this:

smile always..
cos you never knows who is falling in love with your smile.


smiling is the cheapest way to make yourself more beautiful.
instant results guaranteed.


whether u smile or u frown, the day goes on as it is.
so why not make life easier for yourself?


be optimistic.. the cup is always half full.
the situation doesn't change but just the perspective from which u view it.


i prefer to do things the sunshine way. =)

hope you are smiling already.