i hate my hair.

i m devastated now.. yes i am. completely totally through and through DEVASTATED.

1st i got bad complexion. now i got an !@#$%^&*^%$#@ hair to match. well well.. my fault.

okie.. sindy.. you got it right again. i went for a hair cut. and came out with a hair cut totally different from what i want and a hair colour i never dream i will have. ytd, after the cut.. i still felt ok. today.. i feel like i m some ugly shit. i hate it!!! omg..

so i decided tmr i m going to change my hair colour again. to a dark brown. guess what i am spotting now? GINGER BROWN. nice ppl will say i look funky and maybe jappy. insenstitive ppl will tell me i look ah lian or maybe auntie. i hate it!!! omg..

so i decided just one minute ago.. that since i play no part in how my hair turns out to be NOW.. i m not going to let that happen again. i m going to the blardy shop and tell them to dye it DARK BROWN. i m not going to listen to the stupid hairstylist.. i m going to shut myself down from whatever anyone is going to say and insist on dying it the colour i want. yes i will.. I WILL!!!!

ok.. it started last sunday. collin and i was along siglap area looking for helmet (for collin) and we spotted this shop called [colour bar]. so i went in.. and came out lidat.. cut the long story short.. i dun wanna go ard blaming collin or the hairstylist for making me hair lidat.. i blame myself for not standing firm and letting them noe what i want. so byebye.. to my dream of having long hair again. i m feeling depressed.

i think i will spoil my hair for sure. dying my hair just only after one day. but i think it is worth the sacrifice. the last thing i want happen is to not wanna let anyone see me becos i hate how i look.

actually it is not all that bad. i just cant accept it. period.

i wanna cry.. until i feel i look good again. i m not going to BLOG.. not that i dun want.. i dun think i even have the mood. argh.. pls ignore me.