here lies two opposing selves.

simple things in life make me happy.

a smile. a gentle touch. one nod. one wink. a simple greeting. an act of acknowledgement. a nudge. falling rain. sound of the sea. clouds. stars. a breeze. a hug. love. friendship. floating in the pool - close ur eyes, listen.

but.

guys don't understand.
people fail to appreciate these in modern living.
and i, guilty of the same at times.

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ambitions, i have a few.

yet.

many times, i feel i am not up to it.
sometimes, i feel that it's just not me.
could it be social and self expectation to succeed.

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i want is a simple life.
yet i want to fulfill those (preposterous) ambitions.

in me, lies two opposing selves.

FOUR DOWN, ONE MORE TO GO!!!! GO!!!!

FOUR FREAKING PAPERS DOWN!!!

and ONE more to go.. wheez!!!
ahh.. i am smelling the salty breeze of Sentosa. island life, i love it!

tmr's programming. it is a sure die paper i tell ya! and i am so positive that i am going to die that till now i have not tried studying for it despite the fact that i have not touch a single chapter. i am contemplating not sitting for the paper tomorrow but am chided by everyone whom i tell of this wondrous intention. *grouses*

ok! so i decided i am going to sit there for an hour (which is the bare minimum btw before they allow you to leave the exam hall) and hope my not-very-JAVA-inclined-brain will help me do the 1st part of the paper, consisting of very short answer questions. the 2nd part which requires scripting of 2 programs from scratch can go and die please.

but..

i am HAPPY!!!!

cos i am going to SENTOSA right after the paper!!!! straight from NUS!!! wheez.. sitting for exams in my bikini.. i wonder if i can sit still for an hour though. anticipation kills.

life is beautiful once again dunch ya tink?

very very beautiful.

and..

i'll be meeting the UG darlings on thursday (05/05) to celebrate geo's birthday in advance. KTV time!!!! (but i dun sing.. and dun force me to. i can role play the lyrics/mtv though.. heh.. i like!)

and the 26/02 girls and boys on saturday (07/05). sentosa, people? response is goody good.. 18 outta 22 people confirmed attendance so far. pls dun back out cos i will strangle you guys to death. and i'll prolly ask jae (GPJ) to come aso - any objections, raised it now or forever hold your piece. (weilin, can you come out of your shell and pls reply me and COME for the gathering ok? ali, come ok.. ok.. pls?)

finally, i will prolly start work at starhub cuppage from the second week of May. so i only got next week to meet meET MEET! call me and chope your date early with yours truly hokay!! the above is my schedule so far. and yea.. do pop by cuppage and look for me!!! at the shop as usual!!! level one. come with food, chocolates, drinks, tidbits and i will love you till death. but even if you don't, i will still love you for visiting me!!!

i wanna meet maomao, tintin and bi. meet ok!? catch up catch up!!
and ruthie babe.. coffee? yesh?

erm.. apologies for the random thots spewed all over this entry. my last chance today to blabber in such haphazard manner before i hit the organisedandstructuredandsuperduperconfusing programming notes.

wish me luck!! it is all i need and i need LOTSA.

i am ok. thank you.

so we trashed things out.
and now everything is back to square one.

we'll see how things go tomorrow
and the days that follow.

i am scarred temporarily...
but its prolly good thing i got short term memory.

frens, thanks for your concern. i am fine.
just a minor thing blown out of proportions.

ps: deleted the "think too much" part cos
i misinterpreted what lovely meiqi + meng are trying to convey.
ahh.. thanks for being there in any case. *hugs*

my word: independence.

i found the word for year 2005:

INDEPENDENCE

i refuse feel upset. when you don't even know/care.


i refuse.

show me and i will follow.

i am tired..


hoping you can show me the way.

i don't know what else i can do or maybe i should just do..


nothing.

suddenly, it hurts.

of migraines.

just when my 2 large packs and 10 fun packs of M&Ms is reduced to

this (over a span of 2 weeks):



i found THIS just in time!!!



crackers from malaysia! i dunno what it is - abit spicy+salty+sweet - but boy! this is GOOD!!! and i have a big big packet of it.. muahahahahaha.

according to her world, 60% of migraines are triggered by what you eat and caffeine, that's found in chocolates and coffee, is one of the things you should lay off!

erm.. i think i will still finish the M&Ms since the harm is already done. migraine? good.. then i have a perfect excuse to sleep. woohoo~

Her world: Another cause (of migraine) could be fluctuating estrogen levels during your menstrual cycle. (75% of migraine sufferers are women.)

now wait.. it is so difficult to be a WOMAN. why do we have to suffer monthly cramps/backache/water retention, and now MIGRAINES, oh.. and we go through this horrendously painful process called pregnancy while guys go through 2 yrs and 2 mths of army and get a HIGHER PAY subsequently???? hello???

pffft..

happier stuff.

oh.. i realise it's 4 more days to freedom!!! after my programming paper on saturday (9am paper), i am going to SENTOSA straight. lalalalalalala~ talk bout MOTIVATION!!! this is!!

and..

i refuse to call a guy who refuse to call me. i am switching my phone off. blardy hell..

(ok meiqi.. no more blogging for today. urps.)

sometimes, i dunno you. i know you feel the same way too.

sometimes,

i feel collin and i have a major personality clash.


then again,

wasn't it the difference that made me fall in love with him in the 1st place?

sigh.

the blood flows in us.

yesterday, zero amount of work was accomplished. i am covering one module per day now. wth. but not like i am very concerned anyway.

to quote zander, "studies is not everything."

(for people who don't know TKBand, you probably won't be interested in reading on.)

i have been blog surfing a lot recently and stumbled upon quite some tkband mates' blogs. those were the days. these are the memories that never left us. reading Su's blog, it reminded me of our recent visit to the band. (that's like Feb? not too recent. heh.)

nostalgia.

still the same old compound. the same old rotunda. the days we trained hard at the field. the mighty french horn section. drinking from taps. sectionals and punishments round the square. marking attendance. the stairs leading up to the bandroom. people clogging up the bridges. disappointment. glee. i suddenly thought of the times i was at my desk doing the regular secretarial work and Mr Siao, with a lyrics book in hand, was singing aloud in the background. kind of funny when you think back.

that saturday, the school was unusually quiet. no loud NCC land boys, no girl guides, no NCC sea, no scouts setting up funny structures. silence 'cept from music drifting from the rotunda.

signalling to us, perhaps, how everything has changed.

history repeats itself.

entering the music room, i missed that familar face i am so used to seeing conducting in front of the band. somehow i feel i don't belong. this batch of people are going through an experience quite different from mine.

staring at the stranger (or perhaps not so "strange") in front, i asked Su, "must we called him Mr Chia? or can we just call him James?" then we decided a simple hi will suffice since either way, it just seems wrong.

the last time the alumni performed, was it last xmas or the one before, Su and i wrote Mr Siao a card. i forgot how it was phrased but it's something in the line of:

no matter how things have changed, in our hearts,
we only have ONE band instructor.

it is not the lack of respect i have for the present. maybe there are just some things in life i don't believe will changed and it did. maybe i am just not adaptable to changes.

it doesn't matter anymore. we left a legacy behind, and the memories we get from creating this legacy is for us to keep forever.

the friendships forged. the battles won and lost. his wise words.

Mr Siao said at the 2000 farewell party,

just remember the TK Band blood flows in you even after you leave.

some things never changed.

a smile is an entitlement.

Smile.

A smile is an entitlement.

Do you get what i mean?


Have you ever look at someone and regret silently because that smile, once reserved for you, is no longer your entitlement?

Or have you ever resist letting go because you fear that the smile that's directed at you now may not be your entitlement anymore? Worse still, you may never see that smile ever again?

Or perhaps for you, that smile was never yours and you could only wish for the day when that very smile becomes your entitlement - yours and only yours?


I don't know if anyone of you understand how smile is an entitlement.

I don't know how else to put it to make you understand.


But yes... A smile is an entitlement - in a peculiar kind of way.

i m happy today!!!

i am so damn hot.

erm.. not what you are thinking. the weather is sweltering HOT HOT HOT today. it's been a long time since my aircon hits 18 deg. (normally i set it round 24 deg.)

i mean just look at the SUN!

yea.. i noe i noe. i said i wont blog until exams end. but heh.. thats becos i just ain't feeling good yesterday. must be the PMS (no.. it is not a convenient excuse hokay!!)

to avoid sounding contradicting, i deleted that post. see.. not a trace. but i should really blog less and concentrate on my exams.

today's paper went off fine, surprisingly. one paper down!!! yay~

what can i say, the day started well with me waking up feeling extremely chirpy. rare thing.. despite that fact that outta of the 9 chapters, i only covered 3 *horrors* cos i fell asleep "accidentally" (erhmm...).

no panicking though.. i have no sense of urgency this sem. i am extremely not on track but i am thinking i can crap/guess my way through my papers and on top of that, do well enough ('cept for programming which i think i will die jialat jialat). not a good mentality i say.. but it keeps my morale high nonetheless.

then, i got this!

my brother woke up early for his regular gyming session and he made me breakfast... specially for me!!! aw.. so sweet. to think we actually quarrelled and not talk for almost half a year just one year back. urps.. but it made my day definitely.

(my brother is a perfect house-husband/man. and my sis & i the exact opposite. hee.)

four more papers to go!!! i sure hope it all go as smoothly as this one. =)

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collin's oakley is a work of art.



i am referring to myself.

kill me. urg. study qimin!

i m fucking done.



exam tomorrow. only 3 chapters done so far. and i am not in mood to study.



continue eating these cheery looking things and i m going to look like them soon - round.



i am so frustrated. can i blardy just study?

Habemus Papam!

Habemus Papam!

yes.. we have a pope!

Andrew Medichini/AP

Newly elected Pope Joseph Ratzinger of Germany (named Pope Benedict XVI) waves to the crowd from the central balcony of St. Peter's Basilica.



despite the frenzy of Pope John Paul II's death and the election of a new pope, i can't help but to be detached from the realities of life and be immersed in the engaging story lines of Dan Brown's Angels and Demons, which coincidentally takes place in the same setting.

Illuminati. Antimatter. Vatican City. Ambigram. Cardinals. Branding.

i can't wait to finish up that book but collin-the-extremely-slow-reader, who has taken the book from me (when i was halfway done then *sad*) for his brunei trip in late february, has not completed it till today. i last heard he will finish it by today... we shall see.

For those who have read the book, this website is strongly recommended: Official Website of Dan Brown

since i am on it, might as well show you just some more ambigrams:

tadah! the soul of Angels and Demons.

and also..

Earth


Air


Fire


Water

ahh.. i am lost in the fictitious world.

disclaimer: all the above ambigrams are taken from johnlangdon.net and danbrown.com and the picture of the pope from MSN news.

you know it's been long when..

you know you guys' been together for long when:

1) you send him a message on ur month-niversary saying:

"anyway dear.. happy 5yrs minus 1mth..
its still the same old you.
and the same old me.
and its still the same old deep deep love.
blah! watever.. i love you! =)"

2) to which you get no return message and he calls a few minutes later, telling you all kinds of things 'cept for wishing you the above. then just before you hang the phone, you go..

"what the hell.. never wish me. you know what day is today not?"
"uh.. happy 59th months."
"forget it.. dun need to say le."

and you hang the phone down without feeling slightly angry/pissed/sad at all.


3) after a while, you called him and asked him if the both of you should go out for dinner or lunch today since it is kind of like a special day. to which he reply,

"dun bluff.. you don't want to study, want to come out only right?"

@#$%^&*(*&^%$#@#$%^&*&^%$#$%^&*
--> i wish i would have such a reaction but NO!


in fact i find it all very endearing.

i love my hunny bunny!

how can you not love a man who buys you dinner (my favourite roti prata btw) and dessert (PUTU PIRING!!) cos he knows you are busy studying and have no dinner at home today?

and he also brings you a soft toy (xiao xin, the dog) to accompany you while studying --- just when you were complaining (casually) the night before that all the huggable soft toys are with him.

and with the package he delivers right to your doorstep, he includes a thumb drive just because he felt you may need it. (though it was a door gift for one of his meetings, but yea.. its the THOTS! that count.)

did i mention he's dripping in perspiration cos he was walking fast to get to my house?

my my, how can you not love sucha sweet thing?

i love collin. =)

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this is putu piring btw.
i remembered to do a close up shot this time, before i gobbled it outta sight.



yummilicious!!

no more MSN.. horrors!

in a fit of anger, i scribbled this down.



BAH! no more MSN!!!
if you see me, pls kick me out with all ur nice vulgar emoticons (which i will leech before i log off).





i din say no blogging btw. heh. but i might if i still don't blardy hell sit down and study. *exasperated*

bah! wth.

i don't know what i shld do: smash my laptop on the ground or just leave my house.

i am not progressing at all. f**king shit.

go to meiqi's blog.

just came back from swimming, with a rather nice tan. nice for my standards, cos at least it din turn out too charcoal-like. and i swam 3 laps.. erhem.. which is an achievement ok, for my standards (again). blah.. i am a horrigible swimmer.

nice tan reminds me of jasmyn.. that shimmery bronze tan many will die for.

anyway, my other half of the "prestigious" MQM has started a blog! yesh... Meiqi!!! since she is my avid blogder aka big-time stalker (she can rattle off the exact lines of my entries ok!!! *scares*), shall help her do some publicity.

LELONG LELONG LELONG!!
BUY ONE GET ONE FREE!!
COME TO QIMIN'S BLOG,
GIVE YOU ACCESS TO MEIQI'S BLOG!!
CLICK HERE NOW!!!

heh.. dun mind my business tactics. must start small mah.. so start as freebies lo. urps. nah~ i love you all the same!!! hahahahahaha.

evolution of the greatest MQM

(MEIQI)+(QIMIN)=(MEI)(QI)+(QI)(MIN)=(MEI)(QI)(MIN)
= MQM, the legendary duo!!

you can also read it as mei qimin.. pretty qimin. wahahahahahaha. erm.. my blog right? i can say whatever i want. we are legendary.. nah.. watever.

some updates.

i long to write an emotional entry but the things that are happening around me - exams and stuffs - just don't get me into the right mood to put across my feelings aptly enough.

well.. just some updates then.

been staying home to study the last 2 days and progress is terribly slow. only 2 chapters down so far - one chapter per day. wth -_-". but well, i don't wanna get too stressed, so i'll just work at my pace and hope i can rise to the occasion.

i am feeling sleepy more often than not nowadays. other than the usual night sleeps, i am beginning to take afternoon naps, unconciously though. haha. perhaps that explains my lack of progress. wells.. studying is one tiring task.

oh.. and i did mention i am eating alot recently too. at the end of this exams, i am so going to become one big fat ass. pffft..

putu piring, ticked! dorcas is darn hot!

when you have craving for a particular food, satisfy it!

after supressing my craving for PUTU PIRING since watching Food Chain 2 hosted by Tan Keng Hua last night, i have been thinking of it in all the hours leading till now. looks damn good on tv la~ savoury gula melaka melting in your mouth. hmm..

then when i could no longer hold back the temptation, i left the comfort of my bed (finally) to purchase my 1st pack of putu piring. (its only a ten mins walk from my home. lucky me.) urps and i dived into it so fast i din even have time to take photo of it for the benefit of those who have not eaten/seen one. (it looks like kueh tutu but tastes nicer!!) omg.. i love it! but was expecting more gula melaka though.

Craving satisfied. yay~ now i can get back to studying in peace. *grinx*

omg.. i have become rather gluttony recently.. i swear. its no good thing.

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO

DORKIE THE HOT MAMA!!!

she is damn hot lo, or so she says.

i love you all the same, you are my all time hottie!!!

pssst... ouch. HOT!!!

we could all use a lil humour: ginger.

collin sure knows how to tickle my funny bone.

i messaged him in the middle of the night telling him,
"ginger is dead. it just died.."

followed by another message minutes later,
"can you pls come and bury ginger with me tmr? =( "

incidentally, he woke up early next morning and saw the latter first and started wondering why i was in mood to PLANT GINGER suddenly?

yes.. the vegetable/root he is talking about.

ginger, byebye.

ginger has joined the big hamster wheel, alongside with ah fat, princess, wukong and ah blind.

of all nights, it had to happen tonight.

just when i came to my senses and cleaned their big cage hours ago; brought them out for a run in the balls and it had to happen tonight. of all nights.. tonight.

i don't even know when it exactly died. when i went to take a look, it was already dead.
it din even die beautifully. it was bleeding from its head and hips. why would pepper attack ginger tonight? this rarely happens. why didn't i detect the injuries when i stopped the fight?

it must have suffered the last few minutes of its life.

leave me alone for now.

animals are friends.

sindy just gave me this link and i can't even get through the 1st 30 seconds of the video.
my heart sank so deeply for these animals - how inhumane can a fellow human being be.
though i din finish watching it, i cannot imagine what could be shown after all the initial atrocity.

have a heart - animals are friends.

click the below link to find out what i am talking about.
www.verypoisonouslady.blogspot.com



prepare tissues.

happiness is a state of mind.

i would love to blog about my unwillingness to let mobile phone rule my life; my changing perspectives on love; the starhub babes.. but time is not on my side.

09 days to exams. 09 days to cover all 5 modules.

09 days. it doesnt sound too bad to me despite my lack of time + major lack of knowledge. i probably screwed this sem, but well.. life goes on. fight it back next sem then! (incidentally, i think i said that last sem too. wells.. =\)

the good thing is as of this afternoon, i have cleared all my main workload of this sem: 4 projects and 1 assignment.
of cos there are also some stuffs i neglected the whole sem, such as Japanese Studies ivle forum participation which constitutes 10% and till date i have NOT posted a single entry, and also SIX programming lab assignments that i did not even do which constitutes god-noes amount of weightage.

somehow, i don't really care. for this sem, studying doesn't seem priority. i have led 80% of this sem going to school for the sake of marking attendance and fulfilling the bare minimum as a student and a project mate.

student = to attend (most) lessons
project mate = do my part of the job well

i think my priorities are bit messed up this sem. but at least i am proud to say i did the projects and assignment to the best of my abilities.

ok.. shan't drown you in my jumbled boring thoughts, though thats what life is now.

i miss sentosa, i miss the sea. i miss swimming, though i don't know how. i miss my friends, you know who you are.

somehow, i get into this nail painting frenzy whenever i get down to studying. am i a bimbo or what? last sem, i painted them white with fuchsia flowers and ruth saw it and asked if i used liquid paper on my nails. -_-"

this sem, it is PINK - not the bright ah lian kind, but a mellow milky one. just the way i like it.. =)

i love the sea but am unwilling to venture beyond the shores. i am satisfied just sitting on the beach watching tides change, waves lapping up onto the shores with the sea breeze in your hair.

sometimes, i wonder what or who i was in my previous life..

i am happy!!!! connection's up!!!

1stly, a BIG THANK YOU to Zander and Lynn!!!!!

i am online again. a stable connection that is.
i am blogging again. lalalalalala~
i am on MSN again. no longer the irritating pest that keeps logging in and out!!

thanks lynn for introducing trend micro housecall which got rid of a decent number of virus.
and a bigger thanks to zander for introducing me download.com spyware centre and finally and most importantly, Zone Alarm which brought me online eventually.

i also downloaded Spyware Doctor 3.2 and on its first scan, it found 323 infections. my laptop is a major VIRUS-MALWARE-ADWARE-SPYWARE machine. gosh~

i am HAPPY!!!!

especially so after spending long UNPRODUCTIVE hours mulling over my infected laptop and the horrendous connection.

and yea, i am officially done with all my projects. handed in my IF project today after all that mad rush. and i think we did it rather well too.

now.. to studying for exams. abit late.. but WHATEVER.

HAPPY!!!!

collin's comms ball.

yesterday was collin's comms ball. and funnily, up till this very day, i have been the one who's more excited about the event than collin (da main star) himself. after spending a huge amount of money on shoes, bag, cosmetics, the flower corsage (urg.. long story) and hairdo, i turned up with an old dress REVAMPED.

lalalala~ i am so proud of my creation!! (i dun care if you dun like it!! hmph.. it's my sec 4 prom dress for those who were there - shorten and... basically, revamped.)

ok.. time for a photo entry again. pardon unclear shots, my obsolete casio z3 don't do fantastic indoor/night shots.

the 1st shot of the day.

they employed photographers to take our pics the moment we step in. we only took once and i am glad it turn out pretty decent. (the shots are developed on the spot btw.)

second shot.

found hongchoo amidst the crowd, with a very busy date (liao). poor thing..

me still harping on the issue of only taking 2 photos on our jc prom night, collin, in an attempt to pacify me, decided to be funny and suggest we take a shot of us walking into the ballroom.

-_-"

our table - a good view of both the stage and the screen.



who was there:


jc frens - hongchoo and kelvin liao.


my nus og fren - guannie, with boyfren liang fu.


big-eyes dorothy and jc cca mate, shixiu.


tkband mates - kenneth and kelly.

me and collin.. and pretty flowers.


and there was also niger and edmund from tpjc (1st 3 mths) and quiling and pengfeng from aj which we din get to snap a shot.

last shot before we changed out.

in we go..

..out we come.


we proceeded to ink bar where we were given free entry for the night, but came out within a minute. and proceeded to..

STARBUCKS.


where we got bored and began snapping furiously.

then hongchoo showed up with liao, in his garb. gosh~


and we went to esplanade in a bid to disturb couples' peace.

these blue balls caught my eyes.

they din used to be blue, were they?

then i convinced collin to take this shot:

meant to have the future-is-bright look.. but he din really pull it off. hee.

blah.. we are tired. (dropping eyelids)

hate the blinding flash.

the parting shot.

collin and liao with their buddy ancestors.

it was fun. fuN. FUN. i shall forget about social night from now on.

busy week.

things always happen when you are all set to carry out a specific task.

i was very determined two days ago to study. then a call from sindy swayed that determination and i went to work.
i woke up yesterday morning with rough plans to finish what i have set out many days back. then an (not so) early phonecall landed me on the cab to make it in time for tingli's specialist project screening at NP.
tonight, i'll be going for collin's comms ball so i forsee spending great lengths of time preening myself - rushing to get nails done, hair set, etc.

pffffft.

(too tired to be blogging about other stuffs - ting's screening and the kose salesperson *hmph* at robinsons, raffles city. i seems to need a lot of sleep recently - collin's complaining. ok. back to sleep now.)

shangrila with sindy, peggy, dior and dorothy!!!

i was blogging at 11:54pm then i fell asleep midway. the time now is 5:01am. urps. anyway, here goes:

i threw my books aside (again) and went working for this japanese company's opening ceremony called NTT DoCoMo at shangrila hotel. it is an established mobile service operator in Japan, with its own line of mobile phones too, and is here to share the pie of SG's (saturated) telecommunications industry.

had fun strategising how to get to the buffet table. wahahaha. hell, the food was great!!! this is the time where i hope i could swallow an elephant. yummy! tried having a mussel *yikes* after much encouragement from the rest and i am only thankful i din spit it out. *shrugs* i am just never a seafood person.

we have been cheated! as in there is no Kaneshiro Takeshiro!! bleach~ but its ok.. cos i met a bunch of really nice people today!!!

tadah!!

left to right:
sissilicious sindy, ME!!!, very-tall-and-skinny dior, babelicious peggy, big-eyes dorothy.

(dior actually had to bend her knees to look like one of us. hmphh.. we ain't short. she is tall ok? urps.)

anyway, it was good experience getting to be up close and personal with many big shots in the industry. CEOs, COOs, Directors, Presidents, Vice-Presidents, blah! of Starhub, Singtel, M1, IDA, Embassy of Japan, Fujitsu, Takashimaya, Hitachi, blah!

you get my drift.

and better still - watching someone organise an event right before your eyes. it is no easy task. but somehow, i am drawn to it like always. 2/3/4 yrs more to cultivate SELF and decide if i am for this kind of job.

attracted to the seemingly glitzy affair of event organising. ummm...

well well.. better than to start weaving pretty pretty dreams, shall go embrace my books now as promised. shite.. i have completed next to nothing the last few days. wat the heck.. *smacks myself* but lalalala~ i am feeling happy.

darling sissy bird and billabongous me.
hugs girl!!! i love you!!!

love collin too for being such a darling, for coming to pick me up after work and buying us bread which no one ate cos we are all too full from the buffet. urps. muakkkkk!!!

on a final note, i really hate snapping pics with flash. pffttt...

where is my F.D.P.?

my determination, perseverance and focus go awry when sindy msged me if i could work today for some opening of some japanese company.

it's 2:30pm - 9:00pm at a whooping pay of $20/hour.

ah.. the draw of money.

the bonus: Takeshi Kaneshiro as the guest of honour.
woah... must check out the pretty angular jaw he has. i like.

cheerio sissy bird!

erm.. i will be back to embrace you, books!

random thots

it's a fight between time and my ability to perservere; to stay focus; to be determined.

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sometimes whatever you anticipate may not turn out to be the best experience.

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seriously contemplating skipping tmr's morning lecture. i just want to nuzzle in my bed, with my table in front of me while i go through every second trying to study. so far, i haven't been faring too well at my attempts.

*shrugs* still ain't too stress. god noes y.

for the last time.

"one road diverges into two paths and i chose the one less trodden."

NOT.

it is easy to not want to be mainstream but putting it into practical actions ain't simple task.

emotional struggle. once again, i visit this familar site.
for those who asked, thanks for your concern. sincerely thank you.

but like i said, it is nothing too big; nothing worth mentioning; something i would like to keep to myself for now, or maybe forever.

i also said if i close my eyes long enough, it will be over soon. so don't worry - it sure will.

this is going to be the last time i let it takeover my blogging space.

happy bdae to yiyi..

happy birthday to YIYI!!!!

wheez.. another member to the big TWO club.
hang on to ur books at the moment.
we shall celebrate again and again after exams.
can't wait.. woohoo~

life's a gamble.

time checked: o5.14pm

and i haven study a single shit. but i have made my part of the room very neat indeed - plus a (mahjong) table for me to spend my next 20 days on, minus a cabinet which has no room to exist in my very small space.

wells.. just hope it stays neat for long. (but i seriously doubt so.)

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i don't fault people for thinking of the past.
we are only human to do so.

i don't fault people for thinking of the future.
yes. being human, we will only imagine the grass to be greener on the other side.

but we mustn't forget what we have now.
sometimes, we either look too far back or too forward to appreciate what we have at present.

living life is like a gamble. apparently, i am not much of a risk-taker, nor a big time gambler.

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collin is coming over later to see what i'm gonna wear for his comms ball and then we'll go out for dinner together. better go get some work done 1st now.

(listening to collision course: jay-z vs linkin park.)

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dear whoever,

pls give me strength, determination and persistence.


er.. thanks.

yours truly,
min

my battle.

my battle starts today!!

dunno-how-many topics in 20 days.

gosh.. i think i really have to work my ass off this time round.

i can do it.. go go GO!!!!

conflicting selves.

i am but a shell with two conflicting selves.

i was waiting. i don't what for. how could i?

i think if i shut my eyes long enough, it will be over soon. like it always does.

please don't if it only serves to confuse me. it really did this time round.

collin's commissioning parade.

went for collin's comms parade today. wheez~ time for a photo blog!! here goes:

after a long long wait, the ceremony finally begin.
they look like ants from afar - smart looking ants.


collin's contigent.
we were early enuff to be seated right infront of his block.


and we din take too long to spot him.
here is our star!! woohh!!

(click HERE for larger view)

closing up with both my optical zoom and digital zoom to its max, the quality becomes damn bad but thats him nonetheless.

(click HERE for larger view)

and with that, i also found some familar faces.
Kelvin and Pengfeng. Congrats!!

(click HERE for larger view)

and the ceremony went on and on..
the march past.


(ok.. frankly speaking, i was very excited. woohoo~~~)

the men who came to pray for the officers-to-be. hahahahaha.. funny!


the part i like - the slow march.
here we see a very tense-LOOKING collin. (but he claims he ain't tense.)
i seriously wonder whats with his lips - permanent fixture throughout the ceremony.


putting it on.. woah.



collin, the cadet officer no more. his single gold bar and ticket to a $200 pay rise.


the caps were about to go up..


and it came down before i knew it. shite.. no in-the-air caps shot. =(



the people who came:

his parents.


his brother + bro's gf.


my pals, meng and fang.


his secondary sch's pal, ffc = friday football club.


his jc classmate, hongchoo.


yours truly.


look who i found - guannie!!


and the 26/02 (some) guys with the GPJ-to-be, jae.

oh.. i saw choonkee too but forgot a shot with him. and my camera had to die before i could take a shot with pengfeng. most of all, i missed a pic with meng and fang - which is like the stupidest thing since i was with them the whole day.

well well.. other than the s*cky indian buffet, i love the day. it's been so exciting - seeing collin commissioned and getting to meet many old frens at the same time.

allow me to say a big big..

CONGRATULATIONS!!!!
*salutations*