From within, and from with-out.

The upside to a server overload/maintenance at flowerpod is that you get another post from me.

I am not ashamed to declare, I am addicted to flowerpod, and a rather severe one at that.

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[The difference between being in the shell and emerging from it.]

When I was younger, around the time of my secondary school days, I thought that:

(1) Carrying your barang barang with your hands is the way to go, or occasionally lugging it over your shoulders when the stuffs are especially heavy (note: load still carried with hands).

Carrying your stuffs with the mid section of your arms, otherwise known as the tai-tai style, are no no 'cause it looks way aunt-ish.


(2) It's okay to walk under a drizzle. No shielding 'cause it looks kind of stupid. No umbrellas 'cause umbrellas are for nerds. Occasional walk under heavy rain is fun, especially with the right company.

Oh, running in the rain are no no too 'cause it will only make yourself wetter, somehow.


(3) Being alone is weird and uncomfortable 'cause it feels like people are watching you and must be thinking that you are such a loner. Companionship advised at all times – to the toilet, on the way home, to school, walking around school, at the canteen, during recess, you-name-it.

Then I grew a little older. Okay. I aged. And:

(1) Carry your stuffs the tai-tai style. Doesn’t matter it doesn't look cool enough or whatever the shite. Simply ‘cause the load would feel lighter and it keeps my hands free from grabbing the last top to checking smses.

I tried carrying the stuffs with my hands today and one word, it's cumbersome.


(2) Wouldn't go out of my house if the rain is heavy. Would bring umbrella if it’s drizzling. No brolly? Shielding with bag, any paper, my hands or bf's hands are preferred. Saves me from smudging makeup (if any) or at the very least, the skincare products that I've painstakingly layered on.

Run if you must. Just get out from the bloody droplets of water.Urg.


(3) Being alone is not synonymous with being a loner. With the wrong company, I really rather be left alone. And in my opinion, it is a mark of maturity.

So that sums it. Either I have become less hip/cool or times have changed and I am pretty much on the right track. As it is, I am happy with the way I am though Collin's taunts on one isolated incident (of hanging my shopping bags around my arms) made me think a little.

It isn't really relevant but I suddenly recall this part of Tuesdays with Morrie when someone, I forgot who, asked bed-ridden Morrie if he wished to be some-younger-age (read: able to move around, the freedom and recklessness that comes along with it).

And Morrie replied in the line of "Why would I want to be (some-younger-age)? I was once (some-younger-age). Now it is his time to be (some-younger-age) and my time to be 89 (or something like that)."

You get me. Not the figures that matter.

While there were times I wished I am 16 again, I gathered that however I led my life back then and the mistakes I made, I would have lived it the same way and made the same mistakes (given the chance to relive those years).

So what's the point of reliving it? It’s all sweet sweet memories and better left at that. It's my time to be 20 now. And in 2 months' time, to be 21.

Urg. Twenty one. With all that said, don't figures still gripe you sometimes?

I think I would officially declare myself to be twenty-something very soon.


Note: This post is not in any way, trying to diss people who are older than I currently am. I mean we all go through this phase and hey, you have been my age. So smile 'cause I know you still look fabulous. ;)

Isetan Pte Sale/Congrats Collin!

I did not MIA. I am just... erm, busy.

Which is why I am enjoying this quiet moment to blog after all that din and squeeze all morning.

Been to Isetan's private sale with Xiang, Jackson and Collin early this morning, and even though I didn't buy as many things as I would like to (in fact I only got 3 things – a nude colour bra from Triumph, a Nike sports bra and a clutch from Topshop), it is still a trip worthwhile!

It's SALESS after all!! And I am so in love with Isetan Private Sale.

Dorkie was there too – babe, you are still the same crappy you and I love youuu. (So when are we meeting up? Heh.)

Anyway, where was I? Oh, I said I was busy.

Partly 'cause I have been coerce (kind of) into helping out at my parents' shop more often than I like to. At the beginning, it was only Mondays. Then Fridays. And now, my dad wants me to help out on Tuesdays too.

I understand that this is what's maintaining the family expenses and I also perfectly understand that being a part of this cohesive unit called family, I should help out. But I can't help feeling that it's more of, an obligation. And the only good thing that comes out of it, besides not being nagged for not helping, is the random fifty buckaroos I get from my dad.

I must admit, I ain't too much of a filial daughter.

And I guess no one really understands how I feel to be in the family. Not even Collin I supposed.

Complex issues aside, I am thus rather happy that school is starting soon, i.e. I have valid reasons for not helping out, though that reason doesn't spare my ears from the incessant naggings.

That's what parents do, right?

We all have views on how parents and parenting should be. I told Collin when I become a mother, I'll be the coolest 'cause I'll feed my children cereal with milk at breakfast, ruffles/lays and delectable chocolates for lunch, and bread with all sorts of fillings for dinner. (Menu subjected to changes.)

First thing, it's all the things I like. Second 'cause I don’t cook well, if I can consider myself being able to cook at all. Bah.

I like the idea but of course, it's pretty absurd and Collin vehemently disagrees. (And then again, who says my kids will be his kids.)

Uh, gonna make an abrupt end here, gtg.

Collin just called me, and he finished (I thought he was just going in, he completed the 50 qns in 20 minutes) and PASSED his final theory test.

Ya 'da MAN!! CONGRATS!!!

And me, I am going to CDC to meet him now to apply my PDL and final theory test date. *grouses*

Collin, drive drive drive!! Drive me around!!

Maybe I really need to be a parent myself to understand. But right now, I choose to live as it is. And it doesn't really matter to me. Or does it?

Merry (belated) Xmas to all!!!

Heart wrenching.

These words are made for King Kong (the movie, if you have been a hermit).

If not for the many pairs of eyes, I would have cried my guts out.

As a matter of fact, I think I've already cried half of my guts out.

It's a nice show, and if you haven't catch it - slap yourself with a fat chunk of dory* and promise to watch it this weekend.

*Why dory? I don't know, but it's nice and I like it.

The hols' almost over.

I've accomplished next to nothing 'cept acquiring the latest photoshop cs2 and learnt a few things about it (at least I know what layers are all about now).

Speaking of which, I realise I've forgotten to return the library book that's due 21st December. Holy shit. *Cha-ching!* Some money flushed down for no, or some crap, reason again.

And I've not picked up driving yet. Couldn't apply PDL 'cause I don't know where I left the letter that I supposedly must bring along. Didn't book my final theory 'cause I wanted to do the admins together with my PDL.

Shucks! Collin passed his basic theory much later than I did, and he is already starting on his driving lessons. Urg, I can be a spoilt girlfriend and allow him to drive me everywhere and anywhere I wanted/needed to go. But no thanks, I really rather be independent and get my license.

Now where is that freaking piece of letter?


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Oh oh! And MERRY (belated) X'MAS to all!

I had fun - a peaceful and not-so-squeezy x'mas.
Hope you had your fun too! :)


Special note:
Xiang!!! I got THE card!!! This is going to be so so soooo exciting!!! *jumps ard*

Happy happy day.

When you are in the dumps, things can only be looking up, up, UP.

A series of fortunate events happened to me yesterday, so much so I didn’t really want to sleep ‘cause I don’t want the luck to end. Bwah. Then Xiang reminded me it was past mid night so technically speaking, my lucky day has come to an end. T.T

That’s fine. I’m a happy girl already.

So I got back my results in the morning and I did well. It wasn’t what I expected but was what I had hoped. And now, Collin owes me a treat – so you can roughly guess how I did. I won the bet right on the dot. Hee.

And I also owe Yiyi a treat ‘cause I bet that the smarty ass will make it into dean’s list this semester again (“again” ‘cause she’s been in that list for the past 2 semesters *urg* hwa chong people..) and wells, she “disappoint” me and I owe her a treat now.

Stupid bitch is going “I want jap food!!!” and specifically the one at Suntec when I am so broke. Biatch, I’m just giving you a tuna sandwich and a small cup of milo. Hmph. *flips hair* Hahaha.

(Starhub babes, meet up next week alright!!!???)

So what sums up the happy day?

- My Junk Food tees have arrived from USA!!! USPS rocks big time!!! The parcel was only sent out on Saturday morning and it reached me on Friday. Haven't tried them on but the tees are looking good and I love the bling bling!! Lalalalaa~

- Came home to the FP’s spree forum and realized that there are new UO and lipmedic.com sprees freshly up. Though I didn’t get anything in the end ‘cause UO stuffs are either too expensive or too ugly (when they are cheap) but hey, it signifies good luck to see open sprees since sprees always close within half a day due to over-zealous podders like myself. Haha.

- Fang called and she found the 2 boxes of ZA masks for RM70 promotion. CHEAP!!! There are only 6 boxes at the shop and I got her to sweep them all off the racks. Also ask her to get another 4 boxes if she sees it again. Thanks Fang!!! You made me and Xiang very happy. Hahaha.

I have this gut feeling that my happy day will continue..

‘cause just look what I've got in my mail box today?

Ruth sent me my 1st X'mas card and present(s) of the year. Awww, so sweet.

Babe, you are too nice.. really!! I love it!! Thank you so so so so much. :)

i am officially so-irritated with today!

urg.. today totally sucks.

period.

Results to be out tmr at 11AM.

So I can't check my results today, 'cause technically I am still a Year 1 and the nice lady at the FASS office just told me to be patient and wait for another day. Reason why - It's a not-so-long story which I can't really be bothered to account.

In any case, I ain't complaining, 'cause after seeing all the results my friends are getting, I doubt I'll do well too. Hopefully I get no Cs. *pray hard*

Bs maybe, and I can probably forget about getting As.

I thought it was a good sem, and it turns out to be pretty horrids. Urg, shldn't be making my conclusions before getting back my results.

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What I should really do now is to get off my bed, take a bus to CDC to apply for my PDL and for advanced theory, and take a run back home.

My ass loves my bed and it refuses to be separated from it. Darn..

I am not a bloody Year 1.

The attachment says if I am Year 2, I get to access my results on the 22nd December 2005, 11AM.

It's not time yet but out of boredom, I attempted to log into the system and was prompted by this message:

Date of Release of Your Examination Results
From 23-DEC-2005 11:00 Hour to 06-JAN-2006 23:59 Hour

Isn't that the date for Year 1s?


That day while waiting outside the exam hall for my NM3215 paper (a level-3 module), Fengxue and I were scrolling down the list for our seat numbers and were comparing the number of year 2s versus year 3s taking the module. Then we noticed a [Year 1] slot in between the list, somewhere at the bottom.

So we were laughing at the stupidity amazed at his/her courage, then suddenly we realised that stupid "Year 1" was none other but me. My matriculation number don't even start with 05xxxx, it's 04xxxx damnit.

I want my results tomorrow,

and I am not a bloody Year 1. Arghhh.

Santa Claus is coming to townnnn!!!

I woke up with extremely puffy eyes yesterday. Never before - all red and puffy, like a severe case of water retention. God knows what happened since I've not used any new products nor ate anything un-usual stuffs and on top of these, it couldn’t be late night water consumption ‘cause I don’t take much water at all.

Hopefully the fresh cucumber slice helps reduce that puffiness.

I think something is going wrong with my body. I made Collin check my eyes if they're yellow, in case my liver fails me - thus the water retention. *touch wood of course* But the thing in life is, you'll never know.

The only thing I was thinking of was how my mother would react if something untoward happens and the next few weeks, packages keep arriving. Yes, from my online shopping trips. I think she would rather she had kill me personally for spending extravagantly.

Bah. Anyway, that’s just speculation and the worst case scenario. I’m just over reading it. (Actually, I told Collin about my password change and all. Haha. This is crazy.)

I am so looking forward to the arrival of all my items!!! Someone take my debit card and internet banking away from me!!!

Anyway, I realise how this blog is becoming like a photo blog.

I can't help being affected (unconsciously) by the fact that eyes are watching and I don't really want to be writing about stuffs too personal for… just anyone.

To break the pattern, I shall just post ONE photo for my Sentosa trip with Collin 2 days ago (20/12/2005).


The weather sucks. The whole time we were there, it rained 70% of the time. So we were stuck at the hut with 2 other groups of people we don’t know and right beside, there is this other hut where one of the guys were sporting the same board shorts as Collin. To think we were trying to ‘siam’ him already. Talk about tough luck man.

As per pic above, I came out of Sentosa as fair as I went into it. Sentosa is still pretty when raining. Have you seen crystals on the sea bed? That's how it looks like when it rains heavy. And the other good thing - there's Ben and Jerry at Siloso. I love the Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough and the staffs are so friendly.

Still, I hate the rainy season. Nothing seems cheery anymore, but at least we have Christmas now.

And Christmas songs make me happy. Sing-a-long!

He knows when you are sleeping - He knows when you're awake - He knows when you've been bad or good - So be good for goodness sake! - You better watch out - You better not cry - You better not shout - I'm telling you why - SANTA CLAUS IS COMING TO TOWNNNN!!!

my laptop almost went to meet its maker.

sorry for not updating.

my laptop died on me a few days ago and i just got it revived.

surprisingly i didn't cry nor panic. haha.

i managed to back up, thank you.
(goodness, i don't want to imagine if i couldn't.)


now, i have the bleak-est laptop ever.

where are all my programssss???

i want a Mac this X'mas. Hmph.

AJC 26/02 class gathering.

Call me vain. Call me paranoid.

The only thing I could think of doing when I stepped into my house was to bathe and more importantly, to cleanse my face (!!!). So now, when some people are still on the road, I am already lying on my bed (Gmail checked. Tags replied. Fp replies read.) and waiting for the facial mask to dry before I can peel all the dirt and the grime off.

So today’s JC class gathering has been uber fun. I laughed so hard my back is acting up again. But it’s all worth it ‘cause boy, are they funny.

(Actually their humour was erm.. average and probably leaning towards being lame more often than not. But because every time they opened their mouth to say something, I would anticipate it to be funny so everything un-funny becomes tremendously hilarious. I laughed to everything, erm, almost. Easily amused, as Huiling, or was it Pearlyn, calls it.)

Anyway, while packing up, I made a conclusion: we are never having a bbq again. It was fun and all that. But it wasn’t exactly my ideal to get all smelly and sweaty, and to get my oil glands working at full force and speed.

One word. Unglam.

So perhaps next time (if there is), we can have a nice steamboat. Or maybe a potluck. At a conducive environment where we can all talk and play stupid card games (Tortoise is the “best” game ever), and yes, with air conditioning.

Goodness gracious.

I am not so of an au naturel girl. As I aged, nature doesn’t work for me (except nice beaches of course). I hate creepy crawlies. Cockroaches, ants, mosquitoes make me (feel) itchy.

Anyway, just a preview to the pictures we took today. I'll post up more after I collected the pictures from twins and Huiling.


The only girls who could make it today.

Our groupie.

Trivia:
Click on the above group picture for a larger view. Those who don't know who Choonkee is, look at the guy in maroon, on the back row extreme right. There is this blob thing on his forehead. At first glance, it looks like a soccer ball (to me) and at closer scrutiny, Choonkee says it looks like a face. I am so freaked now!! Eeks..

Gonna wind up now, to remove my mask.

In case you don't receive my sms, here's the note from your one and only organiser (who'll be glad to step down and let someone else take over):

Hey people,
thanks for making this gathering yet another success!
I enjoyed it! Hope you do too.
For those who din turn up, you're missed!
Hopefully we get to do this again
and next time with everyone turning up.
That's all. Good night to all. :)

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You know what pushes me on?

All that lovely thank you messages I get each time we come to the end of the gathering. Makes me feel.. it's all worth the while.

Not forgetting a "well deserved" ride home. Haha. Special thanks, you know who you are.

Out. :)

Me so ugly.

If it is true that kids don't tell lies, I am extremely hurt.

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(Roughly translated from Mandarin.)

Kid1 (snapping my pic): So ugly. All not pretty (one).

Kid2: No, she was prettier last time. But now got pimples, last time don't have.

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My heart was crying out loud. T_T

Meetup with Jasmyn, Sindy & Weilin.

NOTE: I did this entry 3 times. My laptop is dying on me. Urg.. So frustrating. Photoblog, 'cause I have no mood for grandmother story anymore. Hmph.

Met up with

Jasmyn,


Sindy and,


Weilin


yesterday. Whoopee!!

We met up at Billy Bomber’s, Heeren where I was grossly late again. Haha. Sorry!!


Sissilicious Sindy | Lamer Weilin | Helmet Hair Me | Rock Chick Jas

There is this irritating (male) staff – probably the manager – who seems unwelcoming to our presence. Probably ‘cause we were creating quite a din but hello? this ain’t a library. The service was zero but their cookies and cream milkshake rocks big time!!

We hecked him and enjoyed ourselves nonetheless. :)

Ketchup Kurt and Weilin.


Muak muak.


Lotsa love going round. Hee.


And they laughed at my helmet hair again. Boo.


I did this shot (and yes, I am very proud of myself).


Weilin left early for her bball match and we loitered round a while more.

Jas is into rowing (dragon boat) nowadays and is at her pinnacle of chao-tar-ness.

We saw this pink walking piggy opposite the road and we ran over to see it. Trailed it for a while before asking to take photos with it. Super cuddly!!! Cute!!!


Muaksss. I love yummilicious Sindy.


Jasmyn looks weird here. Mosiac her 'cause Sindy and I look ok. Haha.


Hee. Better.


See you girls next Thursday!!! We are meeting for mahjong!! Wahahaha.

Please do not cheat my money.

A partial UG meetup.

Met up with Fang, Geo and Meiqi today and despite my constant self-reminder not to make unnecessary splurge, I did it again. Urps.

I bought the Stila lipglaze in watermelon even though I already bought 2 Shiseido lipglosses during its recent sales.

The Devil says: "But it is of a different shade and it is super hyped in flowerpod, so must be good."

Then we went over to Bebe and there was this 15% storewide sale going on. And so, I got their basic tee – the logo tee with the *bling bling*. Minutes after payment, I am already regretting getting it in pink (with pink diamantes) when I really set out to buy the classic black piece. All because everyone, including the SA, says to buy the pink one and I caved in.

The Devil says: "But it’s on sale now – so it’s now or never."

So the above buys pretty much conclude this year, or so I hope.

I am determined not to go for the MNG sale tmr, after discussions with Geo and Xiang. While I will be sad thinking of all the good buys I’m so going to miss out, I’ll be even more depressed looking at my financial status if I were to go and buy, buy, buy.

So some self restrain please.

I am so so sooo looking forward for January to come. (Read: allowance plus CNY red packet money.) Please come soon!! It doesn't even matter if that means school will start very soon.

Enough said. Some candies (haha) for your eyes*:

Fang, me and Geo.

At the Stila counter where I took eons to decide between getting the lipglaze in watermelon, passion fruit or fruit punch.
(Check out the shades on my hand.)

While i choose, they photo-whored away.

Bad aiming skills and a lazy me (to crop photos) - but they all look sweet here, dunch ya' think?

Me and Geo.

You don't realise how much Meiqi has slimmed down until she volunteered to model the tops for me ('cause I can't decide - as usual). She basically shrinked and is officially one size smaller than me. WTH.
(Anyway, she is now itching to buy the above black tee after trying. Haha. Buy, buy, buy!!)

Fang and Geo (who is wearing a yellow Bebe if you didn't notice - but she bought it earlier).

I am only loading this picture because Blogger is running extremely fast at this point in time and I thought it is a nice photo even though Fang has her face cut by half.
(We look happy. We are.)

Groupie.
(And me with the classic black piece I didn't buy. Urg.)

*Most photos courtesy of Geo's latest gadget, N70. I still prefer the yellow-ness of my Casio Exilim.

That's about it. It is 3:25 AM now. Oh gosh, my acne problem's never going to recover at my highly irregular sleep pattern. Good night all.

Or was it good morning?

meng's birthday greeting.

it's a bit late. but meng's birthday greeting is up on the 12th december's entry.

scroll down to see, or get wished if you are meng.

HK will be even better (or so i hope).

Xiang called to tell me of this DIRT CHEAP deal to Bangkok this coming July but I freaking can’t go. Argggg. ‘Cause I already had plans to go to Hong Kong with Collin next hols.

You may say go both places. But I don’t I have the budget to do so.

Then you may suggest me going to Hong Kong the next time around since good deals don’t come knocking at your door all the time. But December hols ain’t HK-friendly ‘cause it’ll be cold and there will be nothing to buy ‘cept thick clothings and boots. Hence meaning the HK trip will be delayed for ONE year.

Pfft.

I shall concentrate on the positive side. HK will be great fun. I can go to Bangkok anytime considering it’s summer all year round, but HK I can only go during the end academic year break. Still ain’t feeling any better.. :(

Xiang and Jackie, have a good trip!! (and thanks for informing me. I very much want to go actually.)

Just a thought: We all have these plans going on. It sounds like we all take it granted that we will still be together by then. But we’ll never know. Or do you?

Disclaimer: 'We' not as in Collin and I, but people in general. So many people are making plans to go somewhere with another nowadays. It's the age - to see the world. :)

Anyway, this is going to a helluva week.

Wednesday - meeting up with UG.
Thursday – meeting Sindy, Jas & maybe Weilin. (Urg, untimely match.)
Friday – Mei’s 21st birthday chalet.
Saturday – 26/02 gathering.
Sunday – Collin day (I want to go to the beachhh.)

JC gathering coming up. Even though I called for it, I have been lackadaisical in the planning. Somehow along the way, our potluck became a bbq. While I have been apprehensive about the whole bbq affair, the guys, namely crapster Yuanhui, have been taking it easy and we are only meeting hours before the bbq to gather our food and materials. Might as well. Save me the effort too. Hopefully everything goes well.

To Huiling: See, our gathering has not transpired to yet-another-Sentosa trip. I can see you grinning from ear to ear. And the bbq’s going to take place at night so there is no need to swipe on your SPF. Haha. Better still, I can forsee the guys doing all the work and we’ll just catch up and EAT. Haha. Evil.

Anyway, (private joke) Yuanhui also said he will liaise with the AJ’s ji si mian auntie to cater us food. We’ll see.


Addendum: Friday is also MNG sale day!! Xiang!! Yiyi!! I know we are all broke but.. Let's go leh!!

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I love Collin and I only love Collin.
That is all I am going to say. :)

i love ting./happy 21st to meng!

ting's so sweet. today, i got an mms from her and it is as follows:

Very cute when you're drunk.

vaguely rmbr taking this photo while i was at a corner of zouk nursing my blister 'cause i have no decent heels to wear to club. how pathetic.

i mean the no decent heels part.

in any case, thank you ting. muakk.


Addendum:

It's also Meng's birthday today. And because being 21st calls for a more special way of wishing him a great birthday, here's a greeting banner:

i have been kind. i am so kind. hahahaha.

you know i am joking, dude. thanks for being so gentlemen-ly as always. while it sucks to spend your birthday all heaty and sweaty, we'll have a good 'celebration' on wednesday when we meet. (i think i just lied. ug rarely celebrates birthdays. haha. WHERE IS MY BIRTHDAY PRESENT?)

goodbye to my yellow sunkiss lady.

yep, new skin.

and a narcissistic one at that. haha.

was watching this taiwanese talk show [tao se dan bai zi] the other day and was inspired by the backdrop of the studio. so i leeched their idea and made my new blog skin out of it. (then i realise peggy's new skin works on a similar concept. boo. since i already worked hard on this, i shall settle for this still!!)

and it is black 'cause.. there is nothing darker.

bah. that was lame. (i miss her blog though.) okay. black 'cause i realise it doesn't strain my eyes as much as a white screen do, taking into consideration the huge amount of time i spend on my laptop and blogging.

so tadah! i love it!!

still need to polish it up a little. like acquiring a cursor that matches, changing the hits counter skin and fixing that technical glitch on my side bar (damnit, the published skin just looks different from my preview one).

did i miss out anything else?


okayy. on a serious note,

i'll be up all night i think. last night of the wake.

it's the physical shell that's gone.
in our hearts, he'll live. forever.

thoughts of the day.

ram my head against the wall.

i am so dumb. my memory is deteriorating at bullet speed. i must be ageing. sigh.

i've forgotten all about the module preference exercise - and not doing it equals to having to bid for ALL my modules next semester. (it's ok if you don't understand. just let me rant.) bah. i hope they don't cost too much, efforts and points wise. shite head me.

boo.

haven't achieve much the last few days. been staying home 99% of the time. it's holidays!! this is so loser-ish.

partly 'cause Collin's been busy busy busy with his "work" (or so he has been calling it. do you consider that work? obligation sounds more like it) and mainly 'cause of my cranky back, which is on the road to recovery btw (haven't been too religious with taking of the medicine, seriously, it taste so so so soo bad).

driving lessons have yet to start. the instructor is one busy man. with my back condition, i doubt i can do da' thing anyway. so we'll see. i want to, and will start the lessons before school starts in any case.

the only thing that i have been doing was trying to master photoshop. some of the things i tried to do the last coupla' days:

(we'll make excellent starhub models. hee.)

and in the attempt to recreate my blogskin, i photoshop-ped this:

to this:

not very well done i must say. still very much amateurish. but i am trying to grasp the ART and till date, am enjoying it. skills acquisition is good.

recent events has set me thinking about money, or rather, the value of money. i have been living like it wasn't a problem. perhaps it really wasn't for now. but there always is a tomorrow. there are some people out there slaving their lives to meet minimum. there is really much more than material acquisitions and the works.

the last sentence's probably ain't really me. perhaps you don't really get what i mean. i guess i need to give it more of a thought to bring my point across.

one thing i am sure is that i should really be studying hard, graduate, get a good job and make good bucks. i don't want to just live, i want to live comfortably and afford the luxuries. i don't know what that makes me. i have seen how difficult it is to live in singapore when you have little financial backing and that is not how i will live my life.

side note: thanks xiang and jackie for the c*ahem*e. cs2 is great though i don't really know what's the difference between it and cs. so do you think it is safe to delete my cs version now?

in our hearts.

just came back from the wake.
it doesn't seem appropriate to blog about anything at all.

check back later perhaps.


note:

visited the sinseh today and did my very 1st acupuncture.
as horrible as it sounds, it really ain't that bad.

one thing though, the take home medicine s.t.i.n.k.s.

- b l o g s k i n . u n d e r g o i n g . r e v a m p -

he lives.

my back is aching like hell. lower back. round the tail bone.
i can't sit right. i can't lie right. i can't stand right. i can't bend ever so slightly.
sigh. got to make the 1st visit of my life time to the sinseh soon. boo.

received some very bad news today.

all i can say is the memories will stay in our hearts forever.

that's how even without his physical presence, he still never really left.

in our hearts, he lives.

to the club

Tingli bitched her way to forcing persuading me to go down Zouk yesterday. So I went.. and I had fun, so no hard feelings babe. Hee.

And it is official.

I AM ALLERGIC TO VODKA.

Darn. Weilin, all thanks to you lar. Of all drinks, you have to recommend vodka orange and now, I am breaking out in rashes again. On my hands, neck and hips. Arggg.. Ok lar, not your fault. At least now I know what's causing the rashes the other time.

NO VODKA FOR ME FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE!

(Thank goodness I don't really love it anyway.)

(Weilin, I'll see you there again ok!! Next time, I'll come with Jas and Sindy!! What do ya say, ladies?)

Stick around with Collin at Phuture the whole night, 'cause Geo is no where in sight after we met briefly when I first arrived. (She is the one who called us down. Hello?) Somewhere in the night, we hit the dance floor with Ting and her sweet friend, Amanda, until we stopped to find THE squeeze at Zouk and that's where the bout of queasiness hit me.

I can't drink for nuts. One cuppa' and i puked, erm.. 4 times the entire night. Twice at the fountain outside Zouk's toilets, once in the cab and on myself (urg), and once more after I left the cab. Good thing Collin was there. Haha. Thanks dear. Muakkk..

The only pics for the night:

(Click here for larger view.)

I think clubbing is fun, but not really my cup of tea.

addendum:
my rashes are so widespread. it's hideous. i am getting depressed. hopefully, like the previous time, it will go away after applying the maple clinic's cream. boo..

and i refuse to think the reaction is due to me having too much a drink. (it's only a glass, damnit.) must be evil vodka.

freedom never feels this good.

Hollaaa!!

Apologies I am away longer than I say I would. So exams ended on the 28th and I have been going out so much, I am so drained that I have no energy to do anything else at all by the time I reach home everyday (and that includes tidying my war-torn room.. double urps).

Collin is out with his ATEC friends to Sentosa – again! Time off for myself, so it’s all good. I am aching from the night jogging we had yesterday, all thanks to my dormant lifestyle during horrid exams. But it’s all overrrr, and I am so glad it is.

Have been rather complacent this finals. Partly ‘cause I was doing so well throughout the CA (to my disbelief). Hopefully whatever I screwed this finals will be pulled up by my CA grades. In any case, I only have to face the consequences one month (?) later. Oh, and for the records, Collin promise a good treat if I get 3 As out of the 6 modules I am taking. Lalala, we’ll see.

Been shopping and spending extravagantly, but I am loving it. Haha. The result is a dwindling account, and I’ve been thinking of ways to make some moolahs to feed my squandering acts.

(Xiang, let’s be entrepreneurs! Hahaha. We are singing the same tune every hols.)

Don’t intend to work this hols, and these are the list of things I set out to do this December:

- Take up driving lessons.
- Learn photoshop.
- Tone up those flabs.
- Get a tan.
- Earn some money.
- Shopping!!!!

Girls, mango sale is rumoured to be on the 15th of this month. Are you ready for the action?


I AM.

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greetings.

(before our haircut at Essensuals.)