of frenship.

as i turn and shout across to xiang and yiyi: "hey.. see you guys soon ok?" that very instance i turn back, my heart sank. i wonder if i'll see them again, doing what we are doing now. that sense of togetherness. the sense that we are in this together, doing sneaky/funny things together, working in the cramp lil shop at tampines together.

i truly enjoyed this short stint at starhub tampines. barely a month. but it was great. and it was only great becos i have you guys with me - xiang, yiyi, dorkie, sylvester, jonnie, angie, mich and normmie. i count my blessings that i meet you guys. each and everyone of you are so fantastic.. its beyond words.

this trip back at SHTM, i also learn to appreciate alot of things i used to take for granted. adrian, jeannie, jac, meien, rachel. these are the ppl that i feel, to some extent, indebted to. a simple thanks will not suffice. i can only appreciate deep down.

have you ever been so close to someone yet when u see the same person a few years down the road, u wonder why u guys are ever close, how close u were or if you were ever close to the person?

i have. sometimes i blame my short term memory. but i guess its just becos we had not put in the effort to maintain what we fought so hard to maintain. a simple thing called frenship.

i think of my frens now.. those i truly treasure.. those i hold so close to my heart. and i never ever want the same thing to happen. cos they do mean so much.. so so much. i dun wanna forget why we were close.. what we went thru together.. the kind of special frenship we have that it requires just a wink or a smile to tell it all.. i dun wanna lose them.

yet we all noe by now.. nothing remains status quo. some people enters your life.. some people leaves. tats the way of life.. its the sad truth. what we can do now is to treasure these people when you still can. at least when u leave.. you leave an indelible mark. you make a difference. then all the efforts will not be in vain. maybe it is enuf to noe you have given it all..

hairy issue.

lemme start today's entry with a photo of myself. this is how i look NOW:

and this is how i look THEN:

i swear it was a more golden shade of brown, ginger brown to be exact but it apparently doesnt show in the 2nd pic. in fact in all the above pics, my hair looks darker. i am having gold streaks now. goodness. to prevent an heart attack, pls do note the above may not be an accurate representation of how i look now.

sigh.. i dunno if i shld be happy or sad. i wanted to look ladylike and sweet? now.. i look funky and wild? urps.. screwed.

but zonghan says: "i m one of those girls who actually look good in short hair."
er..

and sindy says: "only pretty girls look nice in short hair."
now that she is sporting this ridiculously short hair too.. we officially form a club we call OOOWWW CLUB. sindy as the treasurer, me as the publicity coordinator. anyone wanna join? pretty girls only. argh.. watever. haha.

this is SINDY. are u guys in shock (referring to those who noes her of cos)!!?? see.. with a funky shortie, even a candid shot of her with the controller looks damn cool. haha.. we rules!

then my hairstylist, garry says: "hair without colour is like living in your own shadow."
heh.. trust him to say something lidat. he is indeed weird.. er.. i meant different.

peter or xiao hei, my colleague at starhub calls me: "ELLA~!"
i hope he is not referring to my fleshy cheeks though. haha.

dorkie goes: "your hair looks better now. not so orangey."

and yiyi goes: "looks less lian now."

my father went: "aiyo.. more and more jialat."
i forgive him.. his style is still at 1995 where black long hair rules.

so i loved my hair at 1st, hated it within seconds, then am now learning to lurve it all over again. in fact, i think it is at least not mainstream. i m different. though its up to you to like it or not. but i am still different. wahaha. like i have said, if i dun carry myself well and like my hair, then no one else will. so brush away all my doubts.. still be sensitive to comment. else screw off..

went for isetan pte sale today. din spend alot.. but still enjoyed myself with fellow sale shopping mates - xiang, jackie and collin. oh.. to note, i bestow xiang and jackson the honourable title of AUNTY XIANG and AUNTY JACQUELINE. in full spirit of SALE, they turn up early and was 2nd in queue. omg.. my frens. urps.. sorry i was late though. haha. may we have many more PTE sale to come!!! (xiang~ i still cant believe you bought nothing out of so many things. and hope i dun regret not getting the black levis pants. urps.. NO!! i m not thinking about it..!)

i'll end this entry with a lovely picture of MA loved ones.
(what's MA? sindy asked. oohh.. its MY with a slang. gotta talk to suit my hairstyle yea? so OOOWWWW CLUB's actually just means our club. sounds boring. wahahhahaha..)

.me. .pooty. .gubi. .ben4 ben4. .xiao xin. .collin.

happy birthday MEI~!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO WINNIE
or affectionately called..
AH MEI ah~
.wish you happiness always. glad i have you.

my 1st xmas gift of the day. an email from nus biz school informing me that my application for a minor in business has been SUCCESSFUL. good news? bad news? mixture of both.

good news. means i must have did ok for my sem 1, at least a cap of 3.0 and above since that was the cut off for applying for this minor.

bad news. marks the start of thinking if i shld still apply for SMU biz or not. headache. i will be going down to SMU next week probably. see how..


anyway.. i did wake up this morning with a slight throbbing . must be the drink i had at OCHO the night before. i m such lousy drinker.. i only had half a glass and went slightly tipsy. but i kinda like the feeling of getting slightly drunk.. minus the constant throbbing. the stage whereby u are still conscious of whats happening.. but u blabble stuff you dunno y u even say, do stuff you dunno y you even do but you dun give a hoot.

celebrated xmas with collin with the show [kungfu hustle] at PS GV. its so super duper lame.. i cant believe how any lamer it can get. haha. not going to spoil the show for ya.. go watch if you love no-brainers.

after the show, we walk down orchard and decided to leave cos its filled with kids spraying foams at each other. omg.. dangerous zone. not on my nice satin green top.. haha. (happen to see azlan and muz with spray cans too.. oops.)

xmas came and left just lidat. had a peaceful and quiet xmas. but i enjoyed it.. the company is right.


the following days gonna be exciting! i m going for topshop pte sale tmr and isetan pte sale on tuesday with all time shopping mate, xiang. lalalalala~ another round of shopping spree.. gosh.. i am nv going to save up at this rate. horrors..

but i am loving it!


xmas wish: wish happiness to all my loved ones - frens, lover, family. love you all.

joy to all.

i m in the perfect mood for XMAS!!!
i have got the perfect set of clothes to wear tmr.
and a funky hairdo to match.

XMAS-ing will begin after 1930 for me.
cos i m working a darn opening shift tmr.. but its OK!
i am happy! cos i m going out after work.
MOVIE at 2145 at PS.. [kungfu hustle].
not the perfect show to watch on xmas eve..
but will do and can do.
i cant wait!!

dashing through the snow.. lalalalala~

so fast..
yet another year gone at a bare blink of an eye.
i will be celebrating my XMAS with the same fellow
i was with last year this very same day.


collin goh.

i am happy. i m blessed. lalalalala~

MERRY XMAS TO ALL!!!!!!!!
cheers~ joy to the world.

hair. hubbing. school.

my computer clock reads 3:34 AM now.. and i must reach TM at 10:oo AM. so i decided since i will never get enuf sleep this way.. might as well spend some time updating my blog. (though my blog is VERY updated already. i blog everyday nowadays. kinda like a habit now.)

i am less devastated now. cos i m psycho-ing myself that my hair looks great!! humans being very adaptable creatures.. my hair colour is beginning to look alright to those ard me.. and most of all.. to myself. i decided that if even me myself isnt convinced that i look good.. then no one else will. so no matter what you say now.. i m going to think positive.

i look good. i look GREAT!

i shld be going down to colour bar to change the colour nonetheless. i called up garry, the stylist who did my hair on tuesday and went..

me: hello garry ah? you noe who am i or not? starhub girl.
garry: oh.. starhub girl ah. hello hello.. why?
me (sounding sad): aiyo.. my hair colour.. my boss says cannot. cos under the spotlights very bright. =(
garry: huh? then how? but very nice leh.. all my colleagues say very nice when you left.
me: ya lo.. i like it alot too. my colleagues also say its nice. but bo bian leh..
garry: i tell you.. you try to apply wax or gel.. dun apply the dry type like mud or clay. this will make the hair look darker temporarily. go home wash off then the colour will be back.
me: ohh.. ok lo. i try and see what my boss says. but if really cannot how? by when must i come back?
garry: between 3 days to a week. you try 1st lo.. if not very ke xi leh.. so nice.
me: ya lo.. i try to talk my way around. thanks huh. byebye.

wahahaha.. so i think i m going down this sunday. act devastated.. so i dun hurt his pride. i noe he really like what he did to my hair. cos after everything.. he even ask if he can take photos of my hair. haha. actually.. its nice. and he is actually pretty good.. as in he has his ideas about what we wanna do to my hair. i like hairstylists who are lidat. i just dun like the colour.

btw, its official. next wednesday is my LAST day of hubbing. its been great hubbing the past weeks. i begin to feel we have previously misunderstood adrian. he is really very nice. today.. me and yiyi went to tell him that 29th will be our last day and he simply went.. "ok". same old him. he is indeed endearing. like a welfare manager. god bless him.

results will be out this 26th. i m not at all excited. i expect i do not so well. but hopefully i dun do that bad. *keep my fings crossed* then i will go down to SMU and ask if i can transfer to SMU biz.

actually.. i have been making very sporadic decisions lately. 1st, i declared my ICM major. then i applied for a minor in NUS biz. i made up my mind i am going to do French1 next sem despite all the advice. now i am going to apply for transfer to SMU biz. whatever, whoever accepts me.. i will make a decision from there. sometimes.. i feel i am not taking this seriously at all. at times.. i feel i am. now.. i feel i am like picking watever thats thrown at me. any chance if i can try applying for transfer to NUS Biz. lemme noe if you know how..

i think i screwed up my As. so now i am reaping what i sow.. i am blaming no one.. but myself. i m not regretting. its just a pity how things turn out to be this way.

whats the worse that can happen?

i still have my ICM at the end of the day. a bachelor of arts in ICM. so i m cool with it.. watever it is.. i m going to work hard next sem. mark my words..

happy dong zi to all!

i m not going to blog about my hair today. but i have till sunday to think if i wanna change the colour. thats all i m going to say.

today is DONG ZI. what is "dong zi", you may ask..

my mama says: "it means you have grown older by another year."
my papa says: "its means winter is coming."

hmm.. ok. for me, its just another day to indulge in yummy 'tang yuan'. its pretty disappointing to wake up this afternoon and find commercialized tang yuan in my mama's trusty AMC pot. those with peanuts and sesame fillings, the size of a ping pong ball. at 1st sight.. i thot my mum made fishball soup.

i miss the authentic, zheng zong tang yuan i used to have when i m young over my ah yi's hse. we will help roll the dough into little balls. the pink dough and the white dough. after cooking in what i suppose is brown sugar syrup and pandan leaves.. we have lil balls of pink and yellow tang yuan. simply yummilicious.

we will watch my ah yi put some tang yuan in red bowls "for the gods". then you will have the adults tell you you have to eat your age, ie if you are 5 yrs old, you only get to eat 5 tang yuans. heh.. needless to say, we usually eat many times our age.

suddenly, i miss my ah yi. i miss growing up with my cousins. i miss running about that flat at ubi. i miss quarrelling with the ah nehs on the other side. i miss how we try to predict if the show is gonna come after which commercial. i miss the once in a while RC trips. i miss running down to the ma ma shop, buy the devil sweets that makes u tongue goes red, blue, green or black. i miss running to the playground and frantically running back again. i can go on forever..

it struck me we have all grown up. left with memories to relish.. and a bunch of dependable soulmates.. for life. i look forward to us marrying and have kids.. then our kids can come together, play together and grow up together like we did. wouldnt it be nice..

i hate my hair.

i m devastated now.. yes i am. completely totally through and through DEVASTATED.

1st i got bad complexion. now i got an !@#$%^&*^%$#@ hair to match. well well.. my fault.

okie.. sindy.. you got it right again. i went for a hair cut. and came out with a hair cut totally different from what i want and a hair colour i never dream i will have. ytd, after the cut.. i still felt ok. today.. i feel like i m some ugly shit. i hate it!!! omg..

so i decided tmr i m going to change my hair colour again. to a dark brown. guess what i am spotting now? GINGER BROWN. nice ppl will say i look funky and maybe jappy. insenstitive ppl will tell me i look ah lian or maybe auntie. i hate it!!! omg..

so i decided just one minute ago.. that since i play no part in how my hair turns out to be NOW.. i m not going to let that happen again. i m going to the blardy shop and tell them to dye it DARK BROWN. i m not going to listen to the stupid hairstylist.. i m going to shut myself down from whatever anyone is going to say and insist on dying it the colour i want. yes i will.. I WILL!!!!

ok.. it started last sunday. collin and i was along siglap area looking for helmet (for collin) and we spotted this shop called [colour bar]. so i went in.. and came out lidat.. cut the long story short.. i dun wanna go ard blaming collin or the hairstylist for making me hair lidat.. i blame myself for not standing firm and letting them noe what i want. so byebye.. to my dream of having long hair again. i m feeling depressed.

i think i will spoil my hair for sure. dying my hair just only after one day. but i think it is worth the sacrifice. the last thing i want happen is to not wanna let anyone see me becos i hate how i look.

actually it is not all that bad. i just cant accept it. period.

i wanna cry.. until i feel i look good again. i m not going to BLOG.. not that i dun want.. i dun think i even have the mood. argh.. pls ignore me.

i m getting very pissed about work. xmas is coming!!! the season of sharing and joy!!! its the season of CELEBRATION!!!! and guess where will i be? yes.. i will be working my ass off at starhub on xmas eve and on xmas. this is so sian... no.. this is darn f**king sian. everyone is trying to apply for off during these few days, which our managers blatantly said NO!! which is pissing cos we came back after one of them said "its (our schedule) very FLEXIBLE" one mah.. flex what? flex your head.

in a way, i feel i m oppressed into working on this very beautiful season. deprive of celebrating it with my loved ones. not even duly compensated with OT pay. yes.. i m still paid the normal $7 per hour. on ocassions like deepavali or good friday maybe, i m ok with it.. but hey!! its CHRISTMAS!! the day where all ppl with life get out and start loving one another. and on top of that, they dun call it the season of GIVING for nothing.. so gimme the bucks!!

*sigh* on second hand, its like obligation to work on xmas and its eve. i noe starhub will be loaded with ppl. cos its also the season where ppl with no life come out and have nothing to do so decided to kill their time by queueing up with their fellow no-life martians at places like starhub for maybe 3 hours? 4 hours? this is crazy.. anytime.. anytime indeed.. you can come to starhub. y only come and jam up the queue on xmas eve, new year day, CNY??? why??? i noe the managers will need xtra hands. thats y i m called back right? so its not justifiable that i dun work on days where i m needed the most. but i dun wan to!!!!!!!! SOBZ~

this is so sick.

i m going to quit next week before new year day definitely, in fear that they will call me to work on new year day eve.. hello!? i can miss xmas but NOT new year ok.. it marks the start of a NEW YEAR. no way i m going to be stuck with 100 ppl in queue at this lil corner of singapore - tampines. no way.

ps: i did something to myself. omgosh.. just dun be too harsh on it. it will make me or kill me.. so be nice. dunno what? u will noe when u see me.. wells.. i cant say i really like it though. maybe i'll blog about it. when i am in the mood. wateva..

tired.

i realise my entries are getting tad too long. i do have alot to tok about.. but lemme do a short one today. (i try.)

din go sentosa today. decided last night that we shld go swimming at changi beach club instead. so happily i wore my yummy green bikini. stepped out of my hse and the weather is looking all good and sunny. went ard tampines to look for food and also visit zhen. after an aggravating 15 mins or so.. got the cab. halfway the journey there.. hell~ started pouring. wat luck.. my green bikini is cursed!!!

nah.. thats like the norm nowadays. sunny now, raining next. so we told the uncle to turn back and bring us to some bicycle shop at tampines area instead. went to 5 bicycle shops today. walk alot alot. ouch~ my back hurts. the arms hurt. my ass hurts. all thanks to cycling ytd.

ok.. its all my fault. i m so unfit. yet to find a nice enuf helmet. search continues..

allow me to digress.. i wanna blog about this in case i forget.

you noe cockroaches. yes.. everyone noes cockroaches. the black brown shiny disgusting creature that horrors to horrors, can sometimes fly. ytd i came home and spotted one of these fellows near my hamster cage. i quietly move my hammies away. and took out my supposed killer insecticide. i must have used half the can and expected the fellow to wringe in pain and die in a matter of seconds. but no.. it flew up and down, walk here and there.. then when i went to take a look at my hammies, it disappeared. i search thru the hse and din find its body anywhere. must have escaped. either my insecticide is actually water and thus couldnt kill the disgusting thing despite coating the cockroach with it, or cockcroaches have evolved to be immune to insecticides. sigh.. it freaks me now to noe it could still be somewhere.. near me.

so i heard cockcroaches have lived on earth for millions of years. existed during the dino age and still surviving now, not even on the brink of extinction. lemme tell you y.. everytime we see a cockcroach..

me: papa! papa! there's a cockroach!!! help me catch.. kill it! kill it!! (jumps on sofa.)
dad: take a tissue come here.
me: okokok!!!! na..
dad: ok.. throw in dustbin liao. no more. (being typical chinese, he din kill it. possibly thinking of karma? or the cockcroach could be our relatives in previous life?)
me: yeah!! (thinking we have successfully exterminate this disgusting black brown thing.)

but from the cockcroach's perspective..

me: papa! papa! there's a cockroach!!! help me catch.. kill it! kill it!! (jumps on sofa.)
cockcroach: erh.. so noisy. kill who?
dad: take a tissue come here.
cockcroach: omg.. kill me!? i m so going to die now. (shut eyes.) just make it a quick one.
dad: ok.. throw in dustbin liao. no more.
cockroach: (now in the dumps) omg.. i died and am now in heaven. i must have been good.

trash = cockroach's heaven. get it? no wonder they survive for so long. darn this black shiny disgusting creature.

i hate roaches. the day one of them ran towards my shoes and make me stepped on it possibly in a bid to commit suicide (and did so successfully) made me hate it more. i can still rmbr that crunchy sound i heard from under my shoe. yikes.. pls stay away from me, you yikey yucky thing.

still too long an entry? watever. at least this blog is active.

cycling @ ECP.

east coast park.. hmm..
ECP is the place where i fell in love.. twice.
the place where some very memorable frenships are forged - kexin, azlan, eddy.
the place that calms me always.

went cycling today with collin. in my sister's words, "wah.. you all so healthy ah?" now my butt hurts. y does the seat has to be so hard? but its quite a deal indeed. $6 for 2 hours. yay~
start to my exercise regime.. if there is ever one.

we cycled from the Mac area all the way to the east coast food centre for a yummilicious spread. chicken wings. rojak - all "you tian". sting ray. chicken chop. sugar cane drink. too bad the satay beehoon store wasnt open yet and the cuttlefish kangkong shop only open when we have already finish gorging ourselves and could eat not more. i will be back definitely!

the weather wasnt on our side. it was drizzling every now and then during my 2 hour rental of the very-hard-seat bike. but i did enjoy the breeze in your hair feeling prior the rain. it feels so good that i close my eyes once and nearly fall into the drain. but i din. luckily.

later in the day, i successfully made someone else fall from hers though. on the way back to the bike store.. braving the rain. this 4 teens (with their bikes) stopped and spreaded themselves along the tracks. all 4 lanes. i was like trailing behind collin and he suddenly stopped. natural instinct made me swerve right and bang! hit one of the teens who had to start riding at that very moment. she flew sideways, together with her bike, for about a metre? heh.. me? i was standing perfectly still, escaped with almost naught injuries. only my 4th finger on my right hand was a little red. luckily, she is ok. i dun see much abrasion. no blood. it was in all quite funny to me. haha.

reminds me of the time i went for the pulau ubin trip with the HNF ppl. we were going down this very steep slope when i suddenly hear "QIMIN WO YAO ZHUANG DAO NI LE." before i knew it, i was on the ground, tangled with 2 bikes and a gal. heh.. its sindy. my gosh.. haha. thats tickling funny too.

oh.. by the way, collin was on his own bike. his new pet!!! he loves his bike so so much, he has been spending so much $ and time on the add-ons. his MONGOOSE bike already cost a solid $600++. it din occur to me cycling is such an expensive sport. but its nice.. and i think we will start to cycle more nowadays.

tmr we are going sentosa! then off to search for his helmet somewhere and change the bell he bought from tanglin mall (the screw wont fit.). yay! then i can wear my new yummy green bikini!!!! nice!!! and maybe i can wear something to flaunt the white levis belt collin got me from taiwan. doubly nice!!!

collin spend a darn lot of money ytd. seemingly din shop enuf in taiwan. nets more than $300 away. a brown crumpler bag (nice.. this means i have a new bag too. cos i will be the one using it when he is back in camp. good buy indeed!!). a crumpler pouch. a NUM shirt. a bell for his bike. a gel cover for his bike. a adidas track top.
me? i got an american eagle long sleeve yummy pink top. a nike track top. an Oral-B cross action toothbrush. haha. i still cant find a nice visor. yet to buy the nice and cheap sunglasses from bugis. wat else i forget??

this is the food list i consolidated during the time collin is not ard:
1) bedok 85 ba chor mee. (i dunno where it is.)
2) long house. (i aso dunno where it is. near lavender maybe.)
3) jian dao jian curry rice. (i aso dunno where it is. my colleague said it is very much nicer than the one at geylang. i thot the one at geylang was great already!)

saw a shih tzu today at marine parade. its such a cute lil thing. keep biting its own tail, going round and round. i want it!!! sigh.. i noe i cant.. at least for now. anyone wanna buy it for me? i'll do anything!!!!!


alright.. i'm kidding.

counting down to d time i'll c u again..

i cant sleep!!! for obvious reason.. COLLIN GOH IS COMING TO SINGAPORE. heh.. yes... he is returning from TAIWAN in approximately 2 hours i suppose. i am so excited.. am going to the airport to pick him up later.. at about 6 am cos he gonna spend some time with his platoon mates, breakfast i think, before we head home together. like for the 1st time after 3 weeks..

i can't sleep cos..
1) i am too excited.
2) i fear if i sleep, i will over sleep and miss picking him up at the airport.
3) my bed is too messy, sprawled with clothes cos i cant decide what to wear. haha.

yuppie.. yay~ i am a happy girl once again. temporarily stop hubbing for 4 days. yay~ thank goodness. the past 10 days of hubbing literally sap all the energy out of me.. i m like a walking zombie.

my last day of hubbing was ok only. nothing fantastic.. but i m going to lose my voice if i have to talk any more.

then come this customer who spoils my day by being terribly irritating.. 1st, by being ignorant. but ignorance is ok if he had quietly listen to me since he asked everything under the sun. but NO! he choose to interrupt whatever i was trying to tell him and give me the "Wait wait wait.. you listen to me" shit. i hate that. it just irritates the hell outta me. cos in the very 1st place, i hate it when ppl tell me to shut up. he din.. but by interrupting my words and speaking louder to override my already hoarse voice so as to make me not speak and listen to his ignorance is bad enuf. hello! i m trying to make ur pea size brain understand whats coming out of my mouth. i wanna strangle him on the spot i tell you. he practically ask me everything.. even what the pictures on the protective cover of the phone screen means. and repeat everything i say afraid i or starhub may cheat an xtra cent out of him. then he has this $2oo voucher starhub issued.. and insisted to make full use of his voucher. does not have a phone in mind and refuse to go around the shop to look at the phones on display. $88 too cheap.. dun want. must be ard $2oo or slightly more aso nvm, or so he says. what do you fucking expect me to do? (excuse me.) show you every phone that allows you to utilise ur damn voucher fully. yes.. thats what he expect and thats what i did. i showed him a total of 7 phones. still have the atrocity to implied that it is starhub fault that we do not have the phone he wants in stock, and we cannot let him place reservation for that phone. and what if the voucher expire and the stock nv comes by then which he thus proudly concludes.. its starhub fault. as everyone throws me a sympathetic look.. my blood boils but suppressing that very explosion, i tried to explain to him LOUDLY AND SLOWLY like he's slow and stupid. funnily, my colleague thot i was being very patient with him. i manage to pull off a "its ok.. you gotta know what you are buying." when he goes "sorry ah.. i ask so many qn. but its ok la.. its all related to what i am buying." yeah right. whatever. at least.. he will not be back at our shop for at least one year before he comes back to do a early upgrade and i suppose aggravate the hell outta another of my colleague then.

ok.. enuf of my grumbling. i can go on forever. so many "challenging customers".. just too bad i cant make them all happy. in fact, with their damn attitude.. i really dun care if you are satisfied with my service or not. its a two way thing alright? theoretically, customers are always right. but do you really believe in theory? haha.. you must be kidding. working in starhub makes me realise i m not that good as i thot i will be in customer service after all. some ppl just push it too far and i am just not one who will take ur shit just lidat. i think.. i still got alot to learn in this area.

at least 4 good things happen today to neutralise this event.

1) sylvester is back at starhub today. so happy to have him around again! only that we are all separated.. jonnie at recept, me at processing and syl at admin. heh.. its nice just seeing him.

2) had a wonderful lunch at cafe cartel with jonnie, syl and mei en. soup of the day: Cream of Mushroom. yummy. free flow of bread with lotsa butter, cheese and bacon bits. hmm..

3) i met elaine chee. my primary school.. i think i can say.. best fren. i dunno if the feeling is mutual cos i m always so happy to see her but she seems to maintain this distance, like "hey, we are alright not very close" kinda attitude. i was hoping for a nice hug. smiling brightly asking how you have been. apparently that nv happens.. as yet.

4) THANK YOU LYNETT!!!!!!!!!!! thanks babe.. appreciate ur help! i got my niks cleanser already.. all thanks to lynett who help me get it when she went down to maple. save me the trip. thank you many plenty. and even delivery right into my hands at starhub. omg.. thanks thanks. how can i ever thank you enuf? THANKS alot!!

ooh.. its already 0426 now.. i'll be seeing my dearest soon. i think i m fortunate cos you hear how ppl get bored of each other company after some time, how some couples always quarrel, how love lessen overtime.. for us, i think its not the case. i still get excited to see him. we enjoy each other company. i love him more day by day. we know each other well enuf to know what will spark off a quarrel and if it happens, how to remedy it (most of the time).

i figured we will be together for at least 13 yrs if i were to be married to him when i am 28 yrs old. a great feat indeed. so i learn the best way is to not think of it at all and enjoy the moment when we are still together. in collin's words, let nature takes its course.

i m loving every moment to bits..

starhub. starhub. more starhub.

tmr is my last day of work before i get my 4 solid days of break!! yippie~ i am so HAPPY!!!

1stly it will mean i finally get to rest. i m so deadbeat.. mentally and physically exhausted. i need a break!!! a break to rest!! a break from hubbing!!! gosh..

2ndly it will mean collin dear will be back!!! from his exercise at TAIWAN. bet he's enjoying his R&R at taiwan this very moment. *just be good and dun do anything notti. heh.* but i think.. i trust him. so i m actually not reading anything into his 4 days of R&R despite all that "horror" stories i hear from many. haha. ah.. just wave it away.. i watched this show many years ago. i dun rmbr what show anymore.. but the show taught me something that i brought along me with thru out these years..

"if you can lie to me forever, i'll treat whatever you said as the truth."

its a sad thing. to have someone lie to you.. but if you never knew its a lie.. so to you.. its the truth right? but heaven is watching.. i dun believe you can keep a lie forever. so yup..

jonnie is back today.. i m so so happy to see him!!!! my slut!!! its like reliving the good old days! now we have dorkie, angie, xiang, yiyi, me and sylvester (who will be back tmr)! aahhh.. i love my sluts.
stupid dorkie squeeze my butt in full view of all the customers on the 1st day i met her at work. yesh.. both hands on both sides of my flaccid butt. the shop was damn crowded.
then you have randy who squeeze my arms each time he walks past me. luckily.. i nv have an issue with my arms. so its ok.
jonnie came back today and poke his fingers on my waist.. gosh.. the love handles. i am feeling fatter by the minute.
today on the way back home.. i realise my thighs are really becoming thunderous. its not a FAT issue.. i am just so untone. all over. squishy wobbly fats. i dun believe in dieting. i know very well what i need.. I NEED TO EXERCISE. but i am busy and lazy. argh.. i m such disappointment. swear i'll start some form of exercising regime during my 4 days break. i must, i must, i must!

i haven go down to maple to get my cleansing lotion yet. sigh.. i m really busy and mostly lazy. procastinating till forever. currently using my sis' Christian Dior eye and face lotion. whaahaha... but i still prefer the niks cleanser. it gives you this oily feeling but when you wipe dry ur face.. it feels good. watever.. i'll get my cleanser within the 4 days break too.

money or fun.. i chose money. thats y i m in starhub.
responsibility or fun.. i chose responsibility. i think i'll work on xmas. so many ppl wants Off on xmas.. i cant bring myself to request for Off. i mean.. its not the way to work right? they will need manpower for sure.
collin or starhub.. the only thing tat can make me change my mind will be collin i guess. my responsibility to him vs to starhub. i mean.. xmas means book out for him. so.. argh!! but i still think its only ethically right i work on xmas. i dun wanna think.. can i just dun work and they still give me money? no???



DUH!

hubbing..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO
~*~*~MENGSOON~*~*~
Hey yo bro.. sorry ya. unable to celebrate with ya. but i think fang's presence is all that matters anyway. heh. nonetheless, hope you enjoy ur day. omg.. you are seriously ageing. heh.

suddenly it struck me why i kinda like blogging. one of the reasons being me enjoying giving DA DAO LI, discovering and coming up with philosophies of life i call my own.. so blogging is like keeping record of the things that i have made sense of in this complicated world.

i used to be more emotional than i am today. i was so emotional.. thinking back.. i wonder how i made it.. and how my frens made it with someone like me ard.. heh.

particularly, i rmbr this incident when i was outside tampines mrt station with tingli at night.. for god knows reason. i think we were sec 2 then, or maybe sec 3. i dun rmbr. i bought this bubbles thing, the soapy liquid that allows u to blow bubbles out of it. i looked at the bubbles.. and saw how they disappear within seconds..
and i went, "isnt it so sad that the bubbles, being so beautiful, are yet so transient?"
ting, being her.. went "ok. stop." after giving me the what-the-hell look. i dunno if she ask me if i am going to cry or something. i wasn't but asking such a qn is bad enuf.

thinking back.. i cant believe i said that. probably typical of me to think that way but why the hell do i have to say it out for. if someone comes up to me and says something like that to me, i'll either run a million miles away in 1 sec or ask a million times if the person is ok.

i think over the years.. i have changed. and quite frankly, i do like the change that i see in myself. i dunno if i m really happier, but i think i am. afterall, how do you measure happiness?

starhub
ok.. so i met MEIQI on friday!! yay~ the 1st fren to visit me at SHTM since work started on monday. finally able to steal a 1 min break in between the rush. pure bliss. its been so busy at starhub and ppl are falling sick. it didnt help that sick people still come to work either due to shortage of manpower or after their MC runs out, but are still sick. *poor thing*

the crowd is horrendous. ppl are queuing like for 2 hours and are still queuing. today.. we had 47 in queue at some point in time and i m not surprise if it did exceed 50 people in queue. in fact, i just reached home at 1am. and am later reporting to work at 10am. such life.. but for the $, i'll do it mouth shut, no complains. well well.. the lure of the bucks.

so i will be working for 6 consecutive days, friday to next wednesday before i get my 4 consecutive days OFF (from thursday to sunday)!!! yay~ so i guess thats my motivation.

it feels better to work at starhub by the day as i see more of my people.. dorkie, angie. and hopefully jonas soon. i m getting a hang of most things now.. its not that hard to pick up from where i left off last june 2004 afterall.

i love the temp life at starhub.. esp. with xiang, yiyi, dorkie, ng, jonnie, mich, nommie.. they just make everything better and make me feel its all worth it.

i am proud to declare.. we sincerely love each other alot.

starhub = $$$ = happy?

i was about to lament how work at starhub sux now. how i dun feel like working anymore. how busy i am. blah blah.. then a chat with zonghan on MSN makes me realise i m again forgetting how fortunate i am compared to many.

still work sux. but since i am so lured by $$, i'll make the most out of it. make myself happy.
sometimes i do wish worklife can be simpler.. i dun like the fact it has so much politics. i would like to think that everyone is happy and loves one another alot. like us temps used to be..
being there now, its no longer my ground. our turf. we are now the minority. the "newbies". i dun like it at all. just 6mths ago.. we were the "boss", we rule the place, we call the shots. well.. almost.

you leave. others come. life goes on.. i think its time to accept the way of life.

just wednesday, i was serving this customer and suddenly i thot if i din like the work environment, maybe i can derive pleasure from serving my customers instead.. like making them leave SHTM happy/satisfied. at least i m doing my job and i have my babes to rely on.. yiyi, xiang, dorkie, angie and jonnie. i m not trying to form a closed circle again.. i just have no time to make u accept me as the masses.. or simply.. i cant be bothered and i dun wan it.

maybe.. i shld do just that. i will smile and make life good for myself.

sentosa with the girls..

i am missing someone dearly.. come back soon..

been trying to blog the last few days but have been too tired, too busy, too in pain (cramps.. sux).

-tuesday-
went SENTOSA with the 26/02 babes. as usual.. turn out to be late.. er.. 1/2 hr late is ok right? haha. i m sorry girls. work was hell the day before. i cld have not wake up at all if my brother hadnt wake me up, asking if i gotta go work. *look apologetic*

the weather is not on our side. but we make the best out of it nonetheless. its cold and drizzling every now and then. but i had LOTSA FUN.. its like a picnic session!! ali's yummy tuna+cheese&ham sandwiches, sindy's choc cake, huiling's amos cookies, jas' hersheys and my tidbits! wahahaha.. nice.. hope weilin was there too. stupid girl.. thot u say u wanted to meet us after u come back from malaysia?!

a picture speaks a thousand words so here you are.
photo blog:

26/02: my art piece. haha.

the gorgeous.

girls in black.

me with the twins. (tell the difference?)

ah.. sissy bird and billabong poh.

me, ali and one xtra. haha. i love this pic!

want more pics!!!!!!!!!!! (here you go..)


me and darling jas!

lovely jas with my lovelier bag. wahaha..

omg.. cc and ali ever ready for a shot. heh.

all happy and smiling. =)

ali and i.. lesbianing again.

me xtra.. and worse.. looking dishevelled. *sigh*

cool us.

omg.. i love these girls!!!!!


yes.. i do love these girls loads..

1st day at SHTM.

i am having a splitting headache. its throbbing so badly.. my brain threatens to splurt out anytime and put me at ease forever. *pain*

blame the poor ventilation. its really so stuffy in there. add the 14 staff with 30 customers in queue, each bringing with them 1 spouse and 2 kids = suffocating hell. OMG!! its a MONDAY and starhub is so f**king busy/crowded. on a MONDAY?? unbelieveable. we have a crowd thats equivalent to a weekend back in the glorious post As, pre uni days. its like one person buying phone and the whole family is here to commemorate this "special" moment. (you can add a *gasp* here.. as i take out the phone that they are purchasing. then, the mother in tears and the granny fainted out of happiness.)

i knew it.. we attract crowds. hahahaha.

blame the aggressive promotion the telcos have during end of the year. (we are giving away free HP Compaq Presario Desktop for MaxOnline 3000 and Toshiba 21" TV for CableTV. *terms and conditions apply. dun ask me. call 1633.)

thank goodness i am OFF tmr!! yay~ and i m going SENTOSA with my 26/02 babes. my love handles are like spilling over my bikini bottom. argh.. i better do something soon. soon? ya.. soon. i m just this FAT LAZY BUM. (or maybe i m getting into the festive mood. its XMAS. i m dressing up as Snow woman this year. get it?)

today.. work is fine. its so busy.. there's no time for anyone to teach you or anything. so i m practically working and learning at the same time. yet must be able to compose myself and act like i noe my stuff in front of customers.

me: psssst xiang.. u rmbr how to create an E/D?
xiang (giving me an amused look and finally said): i forgot. hahahaha.
me (getting desperate, meanwhile pretending everything is fine in front of the cust.): ask yiyi.
yiyi: huh.. i aso dunno leh.

up to this point.. its basically idiots asking idiots. then finally, we start asking someone outside our ring of idiots.

randy/kim/lynn/rachel: blah blah blah blah blah..
me, xiang, yiyi (in unison): oh.. ya hor.

duh!? i wonder how many brain cells i must have killed today. but i must have revive a few dead ones too. sitting there with my customer.. nobody ard to help.. trying hard to recap which button to click. viola! (after like 5 mins.) the main idea is to act like u noe ur stuff damn well even if u noe nuts. act busy, not helpless. thats true mastery. otherwise, some customers tend to climb all over you. something i learn since day one of hubbing.

adrian is not ard today. and prior today, he told jeannie we noe everything. (we are like " he really said that? huh..") at the end of the day, the manager, jeannie, actually said she is so proud of the 3 girls. thats us, all right. haha. yaya.. i think we did great too.

(trying to be humble.. trying.. trying.. lalala~)

no, we are invincible. ahhahahaha...


** dun try to step on our toes. we may look harmless and maybe quite nice.. frankly speaking, we are like frankenstein+dracula+mojojojo add together. so shut up!

SHTM tmr.. la la la la la~

i m back at Starhub TM tmr. again.

pretty excited over it now. though its probably a short lived one when collin comes back from Taiwan on the 16th. been spending the last 2 days at home slacking to the max, spending 70% of the time lying on the bed, with my laptop.

still have no idea which shift i am working tmr. the usual SHTM super lag style.

i m back to stress myself up. exposed myself to all the dust. face 'challenging' customers. back to my morning run to shtm to make sure i clock in at 1000, and not later. drag the punch out time to earn that xtra minute of OT. gossip/complain non stop about anyone and everyone. and hopefully get to know the hp models&its spec plus all terms&conditions and current promotion at the back of my hand asap.

think its going to be great fun! or we'll try to make it a great fun!

Shopping and ?

i woke up this morning, experiencing "hangover" from ytd's SHOPPING trip with xiang at town. we were together from 1++ to 9++, shopping shopping thru out, with a 2 hr break in between at Lido McCafe (where something funny happen.)

i blew another $100 odds today. plus all my previous buys since hols started for me, i think this figure will double over. but its ok.. i shall go back starhub and all these shld be able to be "reimbursed" within a week! yay~ got a Zara purple spag, a future state pale green SILKY top and 2 bras (which comes with a free G). retail therapy rox big time. now i m ready to go to work.. and earn my bucks back!!!

while taking a break at lido McCafe, with this super big cup of yummilicious Mos Burger iced milk tea, this guy and girl approached us and asked if we are interested in working for their future roadshows. he and his colleagues are apparently there cos they are from this advertising company who put up the Apple roadshow thats outside Lido now. up to this stage, we are fine with it and gave the girl our contacts. according to them.. the pay range about 50 to 70 bucks for a 4 hour job. no harm, since it will be for reputable companies like Apple or New Balance. ok.

then they started to sit down and talk.. for the next 2 hours. (mainly the guy)

so this guy is actually the director of the company. (which at 1st sight, obviously dun look like someone who is in this industry, much less the director of the company.) 6 yrs in the industry. but the company is his new start up of 5 mths so far. we chat a lil and when asked about what course i am in, he seems to got a lil more interested and then from the initial proposed position of roadshow assistants.. he asked if we are interested in working in his company as interns, which he rather call Executive Assistants.

up to this point of time, you may be feeling suspicious of this whole thing. (we have our doubts too.)

he showed us the brochures (its this nice ipod card) they are giving out at the roadshow.. talk more about what they do and how the industry is like. he even asked if we wanna attend this event held at Goodwood Park later where the regional players are gathering later.

it seems like a good break thru.. after all, this is the industry i always wanted to get into. (i always hope to work in event management company or in publications. which according to him, are all branches of advertising company and suggest if i wanna work for the "bigger picture".) if all this is for real, it'll give us an edge when we venture further into the industry after graduation.

when an opportunity is thrown at ur feet, people seems more skeptical and unwilling to jump for it cos it may be fraudulent. i guess we are more likely to trust our instincts if the opportunity is what we have fight for.

i dunno.. but we'll be careful. i think i'll give it a go..

lured by money.

its official. i m going back to starhub tampines on monday to work.

i am happy. i am depressed.

happy cos..
1) i get to earn some bucks!
2) i get to be darn updated with the latest phones again!
3) i get to work with my hot chicks again! relive the good ol' days!

depressed cos..
1) i want the bucks but i want to play some more.
2) why can't cash just fall from heaven?
3) what do i do when collin is back!? working at SHTM means i gotta work weekends.. at least one weekend. argh.. dilemma.

but its official.
i shall go back next week and earn income for the week 1st before i think further since collin will only be back next next week.

going shopping with xiang tmr!!! yeah.. i will give myself more to spend since i m expecting some income soon! wahahaha. i gotta get that GREEN bikini tmr..!!!!! yay~

gimme nice complexion!!! now!!!!!!!!

sorry i haven been blogging despite (sickening) exams being over and i supposedly have alot of time in hand. but since my (sickening) exams ended on the 27th nov, i have been busy busy busy. and i m enjoying every moment of it.. talk about living a life, baby!!!


sunday.
met my starhub peepx. (refer to previous entry) when are we meeting again??? with dorkie, jonnie and nommie of cos.


monday.
went to my mum's shop to help out. monday at my mum's shop = MAD DAY!!! totally crazy. the only day in the week where we had to open the shop at 7:30 AM. bet ya still slping at this time. busied ourselves all the way till about 12:00 PM when the crowd finally cease.

went back home at about 5 PM after all that tedious packing and met jacqueline at paya lebar mrt at 1920 to get COOKIES from her. yay~ so nice of her. her cookies are yummy!! thank you thank you thank you. will rebate u with my pineapple tarts, if successful! haha.

on the way back.. i decided to make some cookies myself for my KTV session tmr with the bestest girls of 26/02. contemplated that i'll 99.9% fail if i were to start from scratch, ie buy flour, sugar, etc. i went for the easy way out. i bought a ready mixed pack!!! wahaha. sly me.. heh heh. but hey.. i still have to add the butter and egg myself and i had to control the heat so all in all, my efforts are commendable, right? thankfully, it turn out good. i only burnt 2 batches cos i got carried away watching america's next top model. haha. (mercedes shld so be OUTTT!!!)


tuesday.
yuppie.. meeting my girls today. the best ppl in whole of AJC. nicest. cutest. lamest. you find it all. 6 out of 10 of us turn up. haha. went to Partyworld and had lotsa fun singing and hopping ard our lil room 27. this "funny" guy who was attending to our room ask if we are from NUS (3 of us are..) and said he is from NUS arts!! year 1 too. the next time he came in with our bill, he gave us a 10% discount, without us having to ask at all!!!! but as expected, when guys are nice to you, its not that simple. --> he asked if we could exchange no. haha.. we gladly took the $6.50 discount, ignore them (he and his NTU fren) and continue singing. yay~ hope i dun see him ard school ever. haha.

then we went for a lil shopping trip ard town. bought a short heeled wedges from URS and another zara spag. love Zara's spag!! the material is so nice!! and i bought a turquoise one this time round! nice~

we girls are meeting next tuesday again.. off to SENTOSA!!! yay~ hopefully the rest will turn up.. hello jasmyn? hello weilin?


wednesday.
went to meet ting, mq and geo for a girls' talk.. sat at nydc from 3++ and babble all the way to 6++ before we went for a brief shopping trip and set off home to watch SINGAPORE IDOL! so Taufik won!!! geo must be sad while meiqi over the moon. haha. me? slightly glad that at least we din have an ah beng for an idol. which doesnt reflect well of SGans's erhem, (good) taste, isnt it? heh.

i gotta buy that yummy green bikini from surf bay. i love that yummy green!!!! yes..! meeting xiang for shopping trip this coming friday!! cant wait..


today!!! (finally.. whew~)
visited the skin doctor finally. introduced to me by huiling!!! i m so excited last night i couldnt sleep. i usually just plop down on my bed and fall asleep in matters of seconds. haha.

supposed to wake up at 0700 so that i'm 1st cos i expected a damn long queue since the doctor is supposedly rather popular. (according to flowerpod.org) but the usual. i overslept and reached the place only at 10:30. i'm 19 in queue by then. haha. thank goodness i only waited for 1 hour to finally getting to see the doctor.

i was so concerned about what to apply and how to apply that i forgot to ask what causes this irritation/outbreak/ugliness and she din explain too. but i'll rmbr to ask the next time round.. which is 3 weeks later.

am perscribed 06 external medications :
1)cleanser 2)antibiotic lotion 3)moisturiser
4)sunblock 5)exfoliating cream 6)medicated concealer.
cost me $82 for all this. its within my budget. but hope it really helps.

results is all that matters.

if it really works.. i'll let u guys noe where it is. so far.. on flowerpod.org, they gave me so much positive comments i feel so hopeful. i want my nice complexion back!!!
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